<p>i think that I'm not ready to take college seriously based on my performance during my freshman year. I go to ucsb and so far I've always been depressed and I just don't feel like trying at all. </p>
<p>During fall quarter, I got a pretty meh grade of A, C, D, B-, and A+.
Over winter quarter, I got a job so I decided to take fewer classes resulting in an even worse grade of A, C-, and an F in physics.
I'm currently ending my spring quarter and I project my grade to be just bad (probably a B, an F, and a D again for a class I'm retaking from fall quarter) </p>
<p>These results were greatly affected by my lack of determination to try. Socially, I haven't been really happy in this college. Also, to add to that, I got into 2 major accidents throughout the course of my last 2 quarters (I Lacerated a tendon on my finger at work, and I got hit by a car while heading to a physical therapy appointment for my rehabilitating finger). It's just been a really bad year and I have no idea what I should do instead of just going along with whatever is happening and treat it like nothing. I need help and I don't know who to talk to. </p>
<p>p. s. my sister and I are independent and we don't really have parents we can "run" to and talk to when we have problems such as mine right now</p>