<p>I just finished my first quarter at UCLA and should be heading back for the winter quarter. What's holding me back is that I feel kind of aimless at ucla. I feel like I have no direction. The thing is, right after high school I started attending cc and during my time there I felt pressured by my dad to get out of there as soon as possible because he didn't want me to stay there for too long. I also pressured myself because I felt that I could do aim high as well. I presumed that it would take me 3 years to finish, but was encouraged by a classmate to finish in 2, which was what I did. This is where the problem is. I focused on finishing my GEs and didn't really know what my major was. I concluded logically that cognitive science would be the best major for me. I like psychology and math, why not combine the two? But, that was the problem. Logically, it sounded right for me, but personally, it wasn't. It was just something that I logically justified for myself because i needed to declare a major to transfer. So,this was the major that I transferred with to UCLA. I immediately changed to history because I found that I had an interest in it. But then, there is the problem again. I had an interest in it, but it didn't seem so much a passion for me to really be my major, just like cognitive science. So, my very first quarter at ucla felt very aimless. I was just taking classes because I had to, and to meet the requirements for Physican Assistant school (which is my ultimate goal). My dilemma right now is my major. Though, if ucla had some sort of a health major or even food science, I would jump at it in a heart beat. But they dont and that's what makes me stuck. No matter how many times I look at their list of majors, there really is none that strike me. Maybe ucla is not for me. </p>
<p>So, that is one reason why I am considering going back to the cc, instead of back to UCLA this next quarter/semester. I can go back and get my EMT certification, which I had plans on getting before attending PA school anyways. Also, I could apply to other schools that have a major that would strike me more than being a history major. I could major in some sort of heatlh and minor in history, as I do enjoy the subject. Or should I stick it out at ucla and be a history major? Because I will be attending PA school anyway and be learning about health and medicine. In that manner I could have a more diverse background? That seems kind of okay to me. I'm really confliced and feel like I am swaying both ways because after writing that, I felt like I don't really have a major but history doesn't seem that bad because I do like learning about it.</p>
<p>Some other reasons why I don't want to go back to ucla:
-my roommate is horrible: she's controlling and manipulative
-i'm finding the people at ucla to be a bit superificial and kind of materialistic
-the campus is really big, I think I might like a smaller campus (plus it is kind of difficult to get a recommendation letter from a teacher who also has another 700+ students)
-aimless (or maybe I just have to realize that I don't have to have a health major because I will go to PA school anyways?) (and I do enjoy learning history, my only problem is that I don't see the application for it. ie. why am I learning this? especially when I can easily pick up a book at Barnes and Noble and learn about it?)</p>
<p>Reasons why I do:
-I love taking classes there, I'm being challenged there and the quarter system is way better than the semester system
-I get to be away from home and have my own life</p>
<p>Reasons why I want to go to CC:
-take EMT classes (too expensive at ucla and may be too difficult to take simultaneously at ucla during the school year and keep a good gpa)
-re-think things and maybe apply to other schools with a major that I would be more passionate about
-be with my friends (having such a bad roommate kind of killed my spirit a little. Yeah it was that bad, I was just putting up with it and letting things be when I shouldn't have been)</p>
<p>Reasons why it might not be such a good idea:
-I have to live at home (my home life isn't so great, it was a big factor in my effort to transfer so quickly; so that I could get out finally)
-may not be challenged enough by classes there</p>