<p>I've been flip flopping sine I've graduated high school. i spent my first year abroad auditing courses--still doing academic work but not for credit. I didn't feel ready to begin pursuing my bachelors when I finished high school so I decided doing a non credit year abroad and working would be best. This was 2010-2011</p>
<p>2011-2012: The following academic year I took 5 classes at a continuing education program, while working full time. That year my grades were A-, B+, B, B-, and F. I failed math. anywho then I transferred to Emerson.</p>
<p>2012-2013: I begin at Emerson. My first year, I failed two classes. Otherwise, my grades were mostly B's and C's. Then i took summer classes and got C+ and a B. The following fall semester, I end up taking a leave of absence half way through the semester not finishing any of my classes. </p>
<p>2014 Spring semester: I return to the continuing education school and take three courses, in which I received a C, C-, and B-. </p>
<p>2014 Summer, I took a class at UVM and got a B-.</p>
<p>Now It is the fall of 2014. I don't ever want to return to Emerson because I was so unhappy there and did not love what I was studying. It was a terrible environment for me. Despite all of this, I have always pursued my interests in Botany, biology, nutrition, life cycles, etc. I realize THIS is what I want to study! I am so passionate about it and have done a lot of work in these areas on my own, not affiliated with any college or university.</p>
<p>So I'm in this place where I feel like no college or university will accept me or i'm a failure. However, I'm too positive and ambitious a person to let those negative thoughts control me. I now know what I want to study and now I am asking whoever reads this forum: DO YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE?! I am so confused about the steps I should be taking. I am taking classes this semester to keep my brain power flowing and to indulge in my passion of learning, but I want to be enrolled in a university. </p>