Depression

<p>Hi,
I'm a high school senior, and unfortunately I am stuck with a very undemanding courseload. I have an internship, and 4 classes during the day (the internship takes half of the day), and now I am at a loss. I used to study everyday, filling up my schedule with plans, but now I am stuck with my schedule. I wish I could turn back in time to change my plan, but I can't. I am very depressed because I constantly look for things challenging to do, but I can't find any. I don't have a Math/ Science classes this year, and thus everything is so easy, to easy it bores me. If I don't have something to do, I think I might as well go insane one day.
Any suggestions? Should I study to take the SAT/ subject test one more time?</p>

<p>It’s senior year man, who cares if you don’t have anything to do. If school work was somehow preventing your depression, that’s something you might want to look into fixing…</p>

<p>Start cooking, riding bikes, fishing, golfing, there’s so many things to do with free time.</p>

<p>Also, start taking cold showers, helps fight off depression. At first, you’ll need to start off hot and finish with cold for a few minutes, but after a while you’ll be able to jump right into a cold shower. Do it up</p>

<p>Build a nuclear reactor in your backyard, you hard worker you.</p>

<p>I wish I had that much free time. Try some new activities or sports. Or get into working out if you aren’t already into fitness.</p>

<p>This summer, I attended a program and got very attached to most of the people in there, and even sustained a relationship short after.
I am a senior now, and I have a very light schedule. However, the bad break-up and the attachment to all the people of that program still linger inside me. I am lost, and now want to estrange from myself, taking a step back, and forget/ treat these people and my ex as if nothing happened.
It isn’t easy. The program has changed me from a very sociable to a very reserved character. I don’t want to talk to anyone, even my best friends, anymore. I am trapped, in the past. Everyday, I drift in my life mindlessly. I eat less, and sleep less. Miserable life, that is.
I want to take busy classes to occupy my mind. I have no other means, or willing to. I want to be alone, but sort of dont want to. I have close friends, but I dont think they understand me. They cajole me to forget, and move on. Yet, it is too hard. And I feel I am walking toward the edge.
It is pathetic, but CC, please help me up.</p>

<p>If you don’t feel like socializing, don’t. Find a new skill you’ve always wanted to learn, like an instrument. And when you’re bored of being bored, reach out to your friends. Go out and make new memories, don’t dwell on the past!</p>

<p>Hi again, CC,
So yesterday, I got to hang out with my friends, and they convinced me well to move on. i really felt relieved, and was able to sleep well until this morning, when suddenly my brain brought back memories again. I couldn’t sleep. I woke up, browsing facebook for a while. The more I do that, the lonelier I feel.
It is so hard to move on. The girl has decided we were friends, but still talked to me. I, on the other hand, was still clingy till yesterday. I want to be her friend, and move on, but it is so hard to. My brain keeps bringing me back the memories.
Now, I want to fill up my schedule with busy, insane classes. The problem is, how should I convince my counselor to drop out of one of my easy classes that take 3 periods of the day. Because the class is an internship, and it is not held at my school, I have felt all the more lonely. I know it is late to drop out, but I really want to. Do you think if I pour my heart and soul with my counselor, she would understand? I don’t want her to mention it on college apps, that I had a depression.</p>

<p>Learn a new language. Clean your house. Fundraise for charity. Teach yourself a new subject. Work on college apps. The list goes on and on.</p>

<p>Perhaps it is not too late to take some sort of high school course on-line.</p>

<p>Or cram for the SAT, because most schools superscore, and take it one more time.</p>

<p>If you do that, go to some sort of organized class, rather than studying alone in your room.</p>

<p>Work out. That gets the endomorphyns running, and will make you more attractive to girls, so you get a double benefit.</p>

<p>Apply to a few extra colleges—perhaps some super reaches.</p>

<p>Find a purpose for yourself. Enjoy relaxation. I wish I could find time for that.
read a book for leisure
help out the community
do something productive in your spare time</p>

<p>Seriously, when you have a good chunk of free time (30 min or so), go out and do some jogging. Choose a good time too, like when the sky’s shady but still bright, and the air is clear and a little cool. It’s give you endorphins…:)</p>

<p>^ah. this. I miss running.</p>