<p>I am stuck. I need help. I've cried and cried over this so much, and I want advice. </p>
<p>Newspaper drama. </p>
<p>I posted a thread earlier this week about this situation, but now it has escalated to an entirely new level. </p>
<p>So here's the deal: I am editor of our school paper. We have a website for our paper which I founded a while ago. We started with an web staff this year...who are let's just say not, my most favorite people. However, I am pretty good most of the time working with people no matter who they are...I've developed a lot of respect through that. Well, so these two people were entirely in charge of the web. However, since this was initially my idea, I am typically the one to handle all criticism, etc. etc. But these two staff members were supposed to be working on this, but never really did due to other "commitments" which they should've told me about. Instead, all they did was complain to me and others "oh this project will never get done, no one visits it anyways" Well, so I took this claim to heart, the fact that we were a few days away from deadline, I intervened and tried to work with whatever minimal work the two members had accomplished (which btw was a disaster initially). I spent all of my weekend when i say all ( i legit mean ALL like all day long), didn't study for two tests because of this so it could be finished. I messaged the two staff members about what I was doing...no response. </p>
<p>Well it turns out TWO DAYS before the deadline, they go and kiss up to the advisor and say bad things about me like that I have been taking over and changing everything while saying that THEY put in their time and effort into it and I just changed things because I wanted too ...when in reality they failed to come to any of our production meetings or anything. </p>
<p>Now, my advisor is so mad at me for intervening because apparently the two had claimed that they were "so angry" that I finished "their" website for them that they wanted to leave the paper forever. My advisor went to the extent of saying that I don't put my soul into anything I do anymore because I am so concerned about getting "things done". I tried to explain that this was simply not the case, if it was I wouldn't have spent hours over the weekend creating this project, in fact, I would'nt have introduced it in the first place.</p>
<p>I don't mind criticism one bit. But when others comment on my lack dedication to something that I genuinely love, that's where I draw the line. I was so upset. My advisor was basically telling me that I had other things on my agenda, that I'd rather do. This is not true. I felt like I needed to prove myself that this was true, so when I got home, I withdrew from a huge dance competition that I had been training for months for because I wanted to show myself that my newspaper was my priority. I kind of regret doing this, it was a rash decision, but it is what is i guess. I don't things just "to do them", I do it because I love them. </p>
<p>However, what bothers me is that if the web staff was so concerned then they should've come to the production meetings, they should've responded to my facebook messages, and e-mails alerting them that I was working on this..but no. Basically, I am painted as the bad guy here and everyone is so angry AT ME that I can't even explain my perspective. I just get cut off. Now I am told to apologize to them, which I don't mind at all. I realize being a leader makes you sacrifice things. But at this point, I feel like I am slicing my ego in half.</p>
<p>I feel guilty for apologizing and not apologizing. I am not sure what to do. I've cried so much over this, and I realize it probably seems so mininmal but it is really bothering me. I am not used to disappointing others. I hate this.</p>