It is very long, and while all of it is true, I feel like I need to chop it down. It is my freshman year at Xxx, first quarter, and I did not achieve a 2.0 gpa hence the potential disqualification.
To Ms. xxxx,
I am writing to you in hopes of expressing how much the importance of my education means to me, as well as to outline the steps I plan to take in order to acquire academic success. I understand the college has minimum guidelines set for all students and my GPA fell below the necessary requirements leading to my dismissal. I took my admission into ***** for granted and instead of starting my first quarter with an eagerness to learn, I instead started with a stubborn, prideful demeanor. I thought that the resources Xxx had to offer, such as counseling, academic advising, taking time to learn at the libraries, and getting help from the L’xxxx,weren’t needed for success in my studies. I realize now, all but too late, that I was wrong. I needed help with my classes and I should have sought it out. Instead of going to my professors or TA’s with questions, I sat in my room and hoped that I would figure it out myself, which led to no where. When I didn’t grasp a concept in class, I didn’t set aside enough time for studying, and figured I simply “wasn’t smart enough.” I now realize that such an attitude was an excuse, not a reason. There are those who listen and actively try to improve themselves and the others give minimal effort and wonder why they didn’t succeed. Unfortunately, I was the latter when it came to this past fall quarter. I only realized it when it was too late. My self deprecating mindset was not acceptable nor productive. I needed to utilize the resources available to me, not wonder why I wasn’t doing well. I did not make the correct decisions during my first quarter at Xxxx, and I feel immense disappointment in myself because of it. It is with sincerity that I wish to appeal my disqualification in hopes of righting my wrongdoings and achieving academic success. Success at xxxx will not only affect my future career, but also give me positive qualities that I will carry with me through adulthood, as working hard and managing my time effectively are essential to graduating.
This past quarter was difficult in regards to my personal life. I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression, which affected my productivity at school. I was swamped in school work by not utilizing the resources available to me, and was not in the right mental state to navigate myself to a correct path. I was not open with my mental health issues, and it took me longer than it should have to get help. I eventually told my parents and they gave me their full support in helping me succeed. I feel ashamed that with all the money they spent in helping me with my mental health, as well as trying to give me a good education, that I couldn’t even pay them back by getting decent grades. However, I eventually got help thanks to their assistance. I am now on prescription medication and am working closely with a counselor. I feel really ashamed of myself for my lackluster performance in the 2018 Fall Quarter and I am now in the best place, more than ever, to show everyone at Zxxx. that I can accomplish academic success. I took 12 units and only studied an hour or two a week, swapping more study time for 30 hours a week of work. Working such a large amount was my attempt in assisting my parents with the large financial strain that I put on them. It is difficult to pass classes with such heavy mental obstacles, let alone working such a large amount which left me too tired to study more than a couple hours a week. But, my poor grades leading to a potential disqualification was a wake up call. I realize now that the best way to repay my parents is to work harder at school.
I have a different plan this coming quarter to help me achieve the success that I now crave. I realize that I can not continue my old schedule and habits and still expect to do well. I need to have better study habits I am going to take 16 units. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I am going to take Writing xxx8-9:50) , Bio Sci xx(2-3:30), and Sociology xxx(3:30-4:50,) along with Uni Studies 1 (discussion Thursday 10-10:50.) I will attend the lecture for Uni Studies on Wednesday from 4-4:50 and discussion for xxxxxx Wednesday 3-3:50. To ensure that I triumph in my winter quarter, I have time set aside to study a cumulative 10 hours a week, with 4 hours on Monday, 2 hours on Tuesday and 2 hours on Thursday after I go home for the day, and 3 hours on Friday, my only weekday besides Monday off. I am limiting my work time for Saturday, which leaves me Sunday for a relaxing day. My new schedule allows me to have even more study time than what I have allotted if I need it, and when I do study on Monday and Friday I am planning on going to the school libraries to do so, for limited distractions. I am also planning on utilizing the strategies I will learn in the mandatory Study Table workshop to help improve my academic performance.
Getting poor grades in my first quarter at Xxxxwas incredibly disappointing, but I have no one to blame other than myself. I take full responsibility for such a terrible performance. However, I also feel that had I not sunken this low, I wouldn’t have had the wake up call that I needed to get myself together and therefore succeed to the best of my ability. I am pleading to continue my studies at Xxxx for another quarter to have the chance I need to put myself back on track. I lost my sense of direction during the fall quarter and hit rock bottom, but I got the help I needed and I plan to only go up. I will not allow myself to fail as I did during the fall. I have learned from my mistakes, as continuing my old patterns would only keep me from succeeding. By continuing at Xxx, it will help me succeed as an individual academically by helping me on my future career path, and I will be able to display how I have matured personally by achieving the great grades in my classes that I should have achieved during the fall. I plead with earnestness for the second chance that I need. Thank you for both your time and consideration.
Sincerely,
xxxxxx