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Dear Committee Members:

I write this letter to request reinstatement at XXXXXXXXX College. I take this opportunity to say a few words concerning my situation and circumstances.

I found it quite difficult adjusting to the atmosphere at the institution; I am not independent nor sociable. The blame rests with my anxiety—the worst and most awful of all mental illnesses. As time wore on, my temper grew more peevish; my nights were restless and oppressive; and my productiveness converted into procrastination. I refrained from attending classes altogether, and sought comfort in farinaceous foods and isolation; it was certainly satisfactory, but detrimental. I did not solicit help from my professors, all of whom—I suppose—are well-versed in a wide range of teaching strategies (i.e., differentiated instruction); it was an unwise thing to do. It was this anxiety that led me to believe that showing any signs of academic difficulties would be distasteful to them. Hence I performed badly academically speaking—I failed to complete a minimum of 12 credits for the fall 2018 semester—for which I assume full responsibility. But do low grades dictate that I am an empty-headed person? Certainly not!

I should not omit to mention that I did not seek professional help for my anxiety. There are several reasons for this. One is that mental health is a taboo subject within the Latino community. I felt reluctant to bring the subject up for discussion, inasmuch as I did not wish to appear weak to my “chauvinistic” family. Another is that my health insurance coverage had been terminated on June 3, 2018, consequently doing much damage to me. It was not until March 1, 2019 that it had been reactivated; in contrast to orthodox treatment, I ingested Cannabidiol (CBD) daily before bed to help alleviate my dreadful malady.

The past five months, I think, have been the five most productive months of my life. I read almost exclusively Victorian novels—that is, the works of Jane Austen, the Brontë Sisters, George Eliot and such. For this, I desire to double major in History and English with a concentration in Creative Writing; and I would gladly devote my whole life to it. Too, I unselfishly devoted my time and energy to volunteering with nonprofit organizations, consisting of Be My Eyes and Letters Against Depression; I was definitely desirous of connecting, communicating, and interacting with others. For the purpose of refreshing my memory, I accessed free educational websites (e.g., Coursera, Duolingo, and Khan Academy).

To borrow a beautiful expression from the late Norman Vincent Peale, “Change your thoughts and you change your world”. I am morally certain than I am less anxious than I was a couple of months back; I surrounded myself with positive thinking by keeping myself occupied doing things that I enjoy doing. And I would very much like a chance to regain my credibility by being placed under academic probation. Should I be allowed back, I will do the following: (1) attend professor’s office hours and (2) attend tutoring. This is to ensure academic success and avoid repeating the same mistakes. If not, unemployment is an anathema to my goals; I earnestly wish to obtain a bachelor’s degree hastily in order to escape poverty.

I can only hope you do me the justice to believe that it was my anxiety that doomed me to certain failures. Thank you for your kind consideration, and I look forward to hearing from you.

Sincerely,
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