I know this seems somewhat ridiculous, but I feel so happy and content with who I am at school. The people I’ve met are so supportive and fun, and I feel so accomplished in how hard I work. My friends at home have separated into these exclusive friend groups and even my best friend doesn’t care to reach out to invite me to anything. I don’t feel welcomed anywhere, and I also got out of a year and a half long relationship over winter break with a really toxic guy who consistently made me feel like crap about myself. I know this sounds dramatic but it’s so hard living in a place that doesn’t feel like home for three months, when you’re excluded from the lives of all of the people you were close to in high school. I try to keep myself occupied with work but I don’t work nights and find myself just idly sitting in bed in front of my computer. I suffered from anxiety my first semester of college as a result of my toxic boyfriend, and being home is starting to make me feel anxious again. Is there anything anyone has done while home for break that makes it worthwhile an enjoyable? I just want to make the most out of the time I have here, and do things to make me feel like I’m not wasting summer. I love my parents but even the days and nights I’m home from work I’m too upset to sit and spend time with them too.
The good news is that you found a college you love. For now just relax and try to enjoy being with your family. Perhaps you can contact your college and see if they need volunteers for orientation so you could possibly head back to school a week earlier.
For next summer look into ways you can stay at school and still earn some money – see if you can get a job on campus, do research with a professor etc.