I just got my A level results just now. 3As and 1B. B in Physics.
This is the first time I’ve got a B in my 1 yr+ doing A-levels. I’ve had 3 major tests so far, and all As for all subjects (5 of them). I’m applying to some of the Ivy League + Stanford + MIT.
Why am I freaking out over the B? I don’t know the admissions process, and I don’t know how they would view the B as. I’ve got a 780 for SAT II physics, and I’m planning to major in Economics.
From where I come from, things are very different from what I see is happening in America. Very few people in my community applied to places like the Ivy League, and when someone does, all eyes fall on him (me).
Not here. What happens here, if you succeed, you become an instant celebrity. If you fail, you are made to feel worthless. No such sweet things as “the community will see it as Harvard had let them down”. You go around outside, you hear whispers and see accusing eyes.
“See? That’s the girl who dared dream of the Ivy League. Don’t end up like her. She only wastes her parents’ money”
“You got a B for Physics and you expect to enter the Ivy? Are you dreaming? Don’t you know they only accept all As?”
“A B is going to kill your chances. So many candidates are applying there with top scores, and you got a B. Start looking at other schools, my advice to you.”
Ignore their words and go for it? How? I live with them. I can’t ignore them because they’re all around me. And the worse part is, I don’t even know how the B is seen. I know many people will be accusing me of having no life, freaking out over a B. But they don’t know my community. They don’t know how is it like when people gather around and gossip about you, just because you dared to do something different. Because I don’t think that is what happens in America.
If the B was for Chemistry, I’d be satisfied, because I didn’t have much confidence doing the Chemistry paper. It was Physics, a paper that I could do well without any major problems. I did think that the Ivy League is perhaps not for me, but there’s no turning back now. No safeties whatsoever.
Do I need professional counselling?