<p>So I used to be part of the Cult of Reason. I believed ethical dilemmas could be thoroughly thought through, that all human problems could be resolved through reasoned discussion. Various experiences have led me to abandon this philosophy, and now I believe that men are nothing more than weak, degraded animals incapable of rational judgment, and human attempts to consistently explain the world are doomed to failure. We are also incapable of truly caring about each other, only forming attachments to fill our own emotional needs. [1]</p>
<p>This is a depressing philosophy. I no longer care for truth, and seek only to be happy. I believe religion will give me a sense of purpose and a reason to live. My problem is I am incapable of accepting one. Skepticism has been firmly ingrained in my view of the world. I don't think I could go to church without internally debating and questioning everything the pastor says. Even worse, I'd keep mentally aligning the sermons with the rest of my worldview, which is what I'm trying to throw out. It's become a habit for me, part of my temperament even -- and fundamental habits are really hard to consciously change.</p>
<p>So here's my question: how do I pummel religion into my brain?</p>
<p>[1] Oh, and life is silly and meaningless. But I knew that a long time ago.</p>