@tusconmom “You already have the equivalent in loans of a HOUSE (in certain parts of the country - definitely not in California, though). $118,000 is a LOT of money for 2 years of college and you’d still have 2 years to go.”
Actually, it’s for 4.5 years, but I definitey am aware of this on a daily basis.
As someone calculated, it would be $10,000 more to take out in loans for MassArt, and I would actually have to do that even to finish a non-nursing degree, anyway. (ie, 13 more classes in psychology, or a 13 week “bootcamp” for a CS engineer). I’ve tried contemplating the art on the side for so long, tried it, and it’s only bringing me misery. Hence the post.
“Ok, I went and read the older thread that was posted above. If your depression issues remain as severe as they were a year ago, then stop focusing on art as a profession and use it as a therapeutic outlet.”
It’s gotten much, much better but I still have a long, long way to go. Much of my art is used nowadays for an outlet. Thank you.
@AroundHere “I don’t know if this is a great inspirational piece for you since this person went to one of the best public art schools in the country, but it is possible to pursue art at places with much lower tuition than the private colleges of art.”
I actually went to RISD with Noah for a year and took a class with him. He transferred in with me. He left because of the money, yes. With your opening sentence I knew it was his artice. I am very aware of his career path and everything. I tweet him from time to time but haven’t stayed in close contact with him. He is/was a very kind person with a lot of insight in crits even in school - perhaps I could take his class (oh the irony lol) but he is definitely an amazing artist. He built up his fanbase over years through facebook so it would take a very long time and a lot of skill for me to do the same but he certainly has an amazing business model and I am so very proud and happy for his success!! When I announced on facebook that I had to leave RISD over the summer, he commented how that didn’t mean I had to stop being an artist. I often think about the different career paths we took (told him this). He didn’t give up on art, and look at him now? I wasted my time and did give up.
@gouf78 “@musica–you left out a major puzzle piece.
The reason for so much stress and many of the health problems MAY be that art is being ignored and belittled as a viable job avenue.”
EXACTLY. THANK YOU. This has brought me only but sadness throughout so many years. My ex of four years pushed and pushed me towards nursing, which I have loved because I have a tremendous heart for people, but I struggled with because he always reminded me of my debt and that I could never really be a working artist, putting it down even. It was like that with many I talked to and just furthered my despair. Of course, I can’t blame other people. It is my own personal failure that I allow other people to dictate my life so much and allow their opinions to affect me so deeply. I am still working on this.
@sax “How many classes away from an associates degree are you?”
It depends on the associate degree. Nursing - I have two semesters left, but for so many reasons it is not a good option for me, I strongly feel. For “general studies,” I could finish in one semester, with courses that I barely have to put any effort into. For a 13 week bootcamp, it would be just that. It allows you to learn enough to get hired directly after and make a ~$60k salary. But I would still face the same unhappiness issue, and since it is an unkown variable about me having only done some programming, I would rather not add another education or career of me starting and not finishing something to the list? For others, I have so many credits, so I assume not very long, unless I switched drastically, ie to computer science- which is something I’m considering, if not the bootcamp.
@MYOS1634 “Once your life is no longer plagued by anxiety and stress and lack of money, you could resume your art studies. But you can’t, at this point, take on more debt and continue sinking in depression and anxiety. Get better, get money, THEN get back to art.”
Thank you for all of the links to the degrees. Many of those, except for the art (unfortunately) are offered at my CC. I will have to look into these.
@compmom “Have you seen a really good migraine specialist? PM me. I am in your state and can give you some names. Migraines, seizures, depression/bipolar disorders, anxiety and panic attacks may all be related on a brain basis. From reading your posts I would guess a mood stabilizer plus an antidepressant might work for you. Lamictal would be perfect but you wrote you were getting off it last year. Esophagitis is linked to food allergies: is that still going on?”
Yes, I am seeing a neurologist and the New England Regional Headache center. But I am very open to second (third, fourth…) opinions. I will PM you. I got esophagitis one more time since, but never got an endoscopy so it remains unexplained. I have GERD but it’s unexplained and am not sure if it needs an explanation for cause? I hate my PCP honestly because literally everything physical problem he says I need to talk to my psychiatrist for.
“And get tuition refund insurance if you can, if you do attend.”
How do I go about that?
“Also, if you are a really good PCA with experience you can make $25 an hour doing private work. This might work great with school because you can set your own schedule.”
Right now, I make up to $18.50/hour. I could probably make more in Boston but I’m in central MA right now. My boss says she’d hire me right away nursing school when I graduate and I always get glowing reviews so that is an option.
“I suspect your psychiatric problems are partly dictated by physiology and hope they are improving and that you get properly diagnosed and treated. I also hope your meds are simplified. Good luck.”
Not sure about the physiology part? When I was initially diagnosed, my potassium level was 2.6 and all of my labs were so off it was crazy, but they immediately put me on psych meds rather than investigated more. Ever since I’ve been treated psychiatrically. Who really knows at this point. But I’m on a buttload of meds still.
“Perhaps in the end you will decide to do art outside of school. Join a cooperative, live in an artists’ residence, work with a gallery, live in an artsy town or area. If you don’t go to school for art ultimately, for degree, you can always take classes and workshops. Our local art association has all kinds of workshops for established artists.”
Those are all wonderful suggestions
I looked into a local art “school” (not a college, but they offer classes), and I am now considering taking a low cost ($100) class or at least dropping in for some figure drawing ($15!)
@musicmusica “By the time you are 27 you should be getting pretty specific.”
I wish I could say that, but so much of my energy has been devoted to nursing and schooling in other areas, putting art to the side (who has time in nursing school?) and not even considering it as a viable career option, that I would have to think longer about it now. But I was majoring in Illustration, was considering many things (band posters, cd covers, book covers, etc), video games, movies. I love painting and drawing. So those are what I do.
@GMTplus7 “Working as an artist is not going to be the silver bullet to make your unhappiness go away. You will just find something else to blame.”
Sure, it will not make my life perfect. But I hope it would lift my depression greatly and certainly remove the literal crisis that I have every month, every week, or more, and therefore be something I can work at other than wonder about for the rest of my life.