<p>I want to offer an account of my experience in a Asian high school and invite American peers to judge it. The thing has puzzled me for quite a long time, and I wonder what the opinions of the worlds most advanced people are.
My English teacher was a twentysomething young woman who tried very hard to maintain order and discipline both in and out of classroom. Sometimes that annoys me, and her lesson is extremely boring, with her speaking fluently, incessantly for 120 minutes, ALONE. But being a foreign student, I had some difficulty in communicating with her. So I rather kept quiet.<br>
But the things changed irreversibly on a day in Jan 2004. After a days lessons, I was very tired and exhausted. I just endured her 2 hour long monologue lesson, and, thinking of another 2 hour of chem practical to go before going home, was obviously not in a good mood. Just when we were streaming out of the computer lab, the b**** started urging people to clean the board.
WHO WILL CLEAN THE BOARD? and her audience is a bunch of 17-18 years old youngsters. A? B? C? she asked 3 boys next to me, but was ignored. Then she said my name.
I tried to ignore her. But she persisted, and called my name again. The air was a bit tense. I didnt reply. I dont mind doing a favor. But the way she put it was disgusting beyond decription: XXX (my name), CLEAN THE BOARD! with a snarl, and uttered in such an authoritative way as if I were her dog. I felt my dignity being trampled. I said: Wait----And started moving to the door. But she wasnt buying it and got angry at my not obeying her order and repeated again and again.
I was in a dilemma. Either I obey her like I used to, but with my dignity sacrificed; or I disobey her but risk facing unknown consequences. The reason why Im afraid of unknown consequences is that I was not accustomed to disobeying teacher, and had to the best of my knowledge seldom, if ever, done so in my entire academic life. (And such is the case for most of my peers). So my mind was swimming, while I shouted Wait! repeatedly, and the teacher got more and more angry.
In the end, I decided to clean the board. Had I known the dire consequences of giving up to a vicious teacher, I would never have done it. Just when I finished, the bitch told me to stay and she wanted to talk to me. After driving my classmates out of the room, she started an one hour long tirade accusing me of committing a lot of fanciful crimes. Extremely rude, selfish, arrogant, self-centered, no respect for other people, etc. Then she said these classical words, in response to my claim that I and she were equal:
You and I are NOT equal. You are my subordinate.
That hit a nerve in me, for equality of all human beings was the foundation of all my moral values. So I tried to argue with her, but my attempts at speech were constantly cut short by Shut up! and Dont talk! I thought that had infringed upon my freedom of speech.
Whenever I approached her to argue more heatedly, she told me to back off, cos I invaded her privacy and shes afraid of me.
She finally accused me of wasting one-hour of her time, not forgetting to suggest that I should be ashamed of my selfishness if I thought otherwise, i.e. that she had wasted 1 hour of MY time
So being unable to speak for myself, the experience proved to be extremely traumatic to me. The worst casualty was my say, world view. I have been raised up in a culture where individual rights is a totally unheard-of concept. Only recently, when I went abroad, did the concept of rights and equality enter my philosophy. However, these concepts being very new and young to me, I still have some doubts against them. And the encounter with that hell teacher sort of confirmed some of the doubts, and deeply shook my beliefs in them. Thus, for the rest of the year, I lived a not very happy life. Cos, deep in my heart, I do not know whether I was right, or she.
So I contrived a final resolution: involve an external jury. You are one of the jury, and could judge on the the following issues that I feel are the core points of doubt:
1. Do I have the right NOT to clean the board?
2. Is her claim You and I are NOT equal. You are my subordinate. Justifiable?
3. Is her claim that Im a self-centered, rude person based on just the fact that I refuse to clean the board justifiable?</p>
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<p>Schub</p>