<p>I was too lazy to type out a forum version of my thoughts so far on UCLA so I just ripped out a rather emo post from a personal web journal. But how are the other CC freshman enjoying UCLA? </p>
<p>Feel free to post your thoughts here too. </p>
<p>Rantings of a College Freshman (Reposted from private web journal)
by FastMEd</p>
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Honestly, I am not looking for pity, especially since these posts meant more to be a sort of catharsis for me rather than entertainment for others that read them, but I am feeling rather confused in college.</p>
<p>I do not think I fit in with the other "Bruins" - the white fraternity boys that down shots and molest girls who only feign indignation, the Asian gangsters, or the truly academic research students out there. Is there a place for your normal, dull student with perhaps beyond average aspirations? A place where your typical "Doug Funny from Bluffington" type (It's an old cartoon) can find his Patty Mayonnaise and some success in life (By the way, I hate the name Patty)?</p>
<p>It was in elementary school when I first learned the phrase "It is loneliest in a crowd," but it was only in college when I truly knew the phrase. Despite the hellos from near strangers who I would like to know, I feel empty inside.</p>
<p>This, however, is the life I have chosen - a life filled potentially with struggle and hardship, but I must still walk it for it is the path I have chosen.</p>
<p>Andrew Carnegie once said, "My heart is in my work." I suppose my heart will also be in my work.</p>
<p>Perhaps I have been spoiled. Unlike the generation before me, I have never had to deal with hunger and malnutrition. My roommate is friendly. I have some friends albeit male from high school at this school. What is there to complain about? I just cannot help but feel the want for more. I want to be a social butterfly, a real playboy, the star of the school, the mysterious curve-setting student, and the guy at the end of the day with paying work. 1,2, and 3 on the list? Perhaps not. Mysterious curve-setting student I can do. Paying work? Well, that will depend on how much of a social butterfly and a playboy I can learn to be at UCLA.</p>
<h2>In the past, I may have edited this for style, content, and correctness but not anymore.</h2>
<p>Let the flames begin.</p>