<p>I'm sick and tired of going into every damn thing I do with full force and full ambition only to let myself down with disappointing results. I'm tired of being stuck with a low GPA from 9th grade that will hold me back from getting into my "ex" dream schools.
I'm sick and tired of stupid boring worthless extracurriculars munching up my sleep time and holding me back from a social life.
I'm sick and tired of high school drama. I'm tired of the immaturity and idiocy of my peers.
I'm sick and tired of not being able to sleep in on weekends, because extracurriculars (mostly the ones I hate) and my part time job (which I also hate) force me to wake at 5:30 on Saturdays and Sundays.
I'm sick and tired of constantly worrying about getting into good colleges when I know that my stats suck and I'm truly wasting my time.
I'm sick and tired of heartless teachers who make no effort to explain things or give you extra help. THEY DON'T LISTEN.
I'm sick and tired of Honors/AP Classes because they just suck and I hate taking them.</p>
<p>Life is short; why waste it going through this crap?</p>
<p>I don't know who I thought I was, but I just quit. This school year is way too freaking difficult, and there's no point in going on: I QUIT.</p>
<p>I'm seriously considering dropping out. I just don't know what to do and I really need some advice. I approached my parents and they won't take me seriously.</p>
<p>PLEASE help me turn myself around; I just don't know what to do next: as of now, nothing...</p>
<p>sometimes i ask myself the same questions. so what if i only end up at rutgers? i mean i've heard great job stories regarding RU graduates. and yet i just can't seem to let go of that "i wanna go to ________" mindset. i kinda gave up towards the end last year and i'm gonna pay for it. but whatever u do, do not drop out. b/c that's not a choice. do the best u can till the end of the year and whatever happens, happens. it'll all straighten itself out in the end, that's what my dad said today cuz i was just on the verge of crying (okay i was, crying indeed) b/c i got so scared at the perspective of me getting rejected from EVERYWHERE, including my safety. now i'm just paranoid. man i need therapy!</p>
<p>btw, this place (CC) has a lot to do w/it! i mean, c'mon, seeing ppl get rejected with 2300 ALWAYS makes my day..or night. yes it sucks, but gotta suck it up. couple of months to go!</p>
<p>Sorry, I just have to say it.
A lot of people work hard .. I guess life weeds out those who can't and those who can.</p>
<p>Keep going at it -- I know it sucks, but I'm sure there will be some sort of reward at the end. The experiences you reap from work, the communication development you receive after handling problems at school, the poor GPAs made you more weary of possible challenges to your goals, etc</p>
<p>I like to tell myself: (1) Don't @$!$ up. (2) When you do, don't complain and fix it. (3) Work hard. </p>
<p>I pity you.
Thank god I've always taken it easy.
Thank god I've never cared about grades (that much).
Thank god I only did ECs I loved.
Thank god all of my friends and colleagues were intelligent and mature (and male--no drama).
Thank god I slept in every weekend.
Thank god I got into the best college.
Thank god my teachers were so warm, brilliant, and caring.
Thank god all of my classes were so interesting and fulfilling.</p>
<p>I love life.
Take it easy. You'll enjoy life and school much more if you just take it easy.
Which is to say, care, but don't kill yourself over things that make you miserable.</p>
<p>kwu: Only the last one does the OP have any control over. I completely agree with your suggestion to take it easy, and I respect that you have done so. But those statements attest to your luckiness, not your good attitude. I doubt the OP feels better/is more motivated after that post.</p>
<p>On the other hand, OP, I do agree that in order to get some fulfillment from high school, you may want to try to take more responsibility for your own learning, and attempt to take some joy from expanding your mind (I know this sound extraordinarily trite) or creating something (papers, essays, etc). You don't need to extend yourself so far in the activities you don't enjoy or value, and you will be able to explain to colleges how you realized perhaps late in highschool what you love to do.</p>
<p>if you get discouraged just think of the gigantic mansion full of batcaves, secret passages/rooms, underground rivers/waterfalls/secret libraries etc. that you might one day be able to afford! but only if you work hard.</p>
<p>As Bobby McFerrin once said: "Don't worry, be happy!"</p>
<p>But really, everyone goes through times like this and it's okay. I haven't exactly had the best of luck with my GPA either (or my test scores for that matter... or my rank...). </p>
<p>But chin up, soldier! Tomorrow's another day and while things might seem mundane and stressful and tiring and just not worth it... You don't really have all that much time left so it's okay. In less than a year, you'll see the reason why you did all of these things and slaved and killed yourself over all of it.</p>
<p>"But those statements attest to your luckiness, not your good attitude."</p>
<p>I disagree. A good attitude was the only thing keeping me going during sophomore year, and the only thing that's keeping me going through my junior year. Granted, for most people it's near impossible to enjoy everything you do in and outside of school. However, viewing things in a positive way actually helps you (and has helped me) a lot mentally.</p>
<p>Also, don't overestimate your abilities. I always know people say shoot for the stars and stuff. And it's true; you should try to do your best. But looking at your stress, it seems like you're just taking on too much. Maybe let go of a few extracurriculars. Don't think of it as giving up. You're just being reasonable.</p>
<p>Get the hell over it. Stop whining, you chose to do all these "difficult" stuff. In the end, there's no one else to blame but yourself. god..
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Thank god I've always taken it easy.
Thank god I've never cared about grades (that much).
Thank god I only did ECs I loved.
Thank god I slept in every weekend.
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That's exactly me (although I have 0 EC's, and I sleep way more).</p>
<p>As much as school sucks, you have to get through it. You literally have no shot at all without a diploma in HS, let alone college. Quit your job and look for a new one. Thats the first change I would make.</p>
<p>I've known a number of kids who have had bad freshman years and did well in getting into colleges. Many colleges will not count your freshman year, and many others will take it into consideration how much you improved.</p>
<p>at least you've stated what's bothering you..that's the worst part...now think about it...do you really want to quit school? isn't it worth seeing your friends and having dream schools and dealing with the drama b/c it's better than a job and paying taxes?</p>
<p>drop any EC, take easier classes, but DON'T drop out and try your best at academics to get into a decent school. It's a competitive world, what with a *<strong><em>load of Mexicans competing for blue collar work and in the white collar segment there are a ton of Orientals and Indians with crazy work ethics itching to take your job, not to mention the surprisingly large intelligent segment of the general Caucasian population(and Jews of course). It's an incredibly competitive world out there and you need every advantage you can get. Without high school you're probably doomed to some worthless, dead-end job, and with no college a life of mediocrity. You might hear a lot of high school drop-out success stories but don't buy it. The chances of that happening are tiny, so don't go do something stupid and *</em></strong> yourself over.</p>
<p>Ok, I'm going to be completely honest here (probably more honest than I should be on the Internet). I suffered through almost exactly what you're going through right now. So much so, actually, that I chose to redo my junior year (I know, right?). But I don't consider this failing. I'm glad I chose what I did. I hated high school so incredibly much. I hated my friends, I hated the drama that they and everyone else created, and just hated school in general. So why did I choose to add an extra year to the ugly hump we call high school to my life? Because I had the same dreams and goals as you. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't let those dream schools go. I loved learning and didn't want to give it up, but for a while I was seriously thinking of dropping out. DON'T DO IT! I'm serious. If you drop out of high school now, with only a couple of months to go, you have no idea how long you'll regret it - most probably the rest of your life - because you won't have any opportunities that you would have had with a high school diploma. I think it highly likely that you're suffering from a case of depression. That's what I had/have anyway. It explains a lot: the wondering of why you do what you do, feeling hopeless...both tell-tale signs of depression. So what can you do if you are suffering from it? Get help. I'm not being sarcastic or facetious when I say this, nor am I trying to be cruel. (I'm guessing you've experienced or at least witnessed enough cruelty in high school...who hasn't?) But seriously. Go see someone. Talk it through with someone. Even though they're paid to help you, counselors, if you just do a little searching, generally genuinely want to help you. </p>
<p>So where am I now? After a long haul of serious depression (since sophomore year on) I went to an alternative school for my (first) junior year. I got my grades up, adjusted my attitude and expectations, and became a MUCH happier person. Now I'm at an extremely rigorous college prep school, where drama and annoying girls persist, but I can face it because of my whole new outlook on life. I think you really just need to adjust your expectations for yourself and learn to live life happily. Do the things you love, and eliminate all those you don't absolutely live for. For me, writing is my love, my passion, and my talent. It makes the days go by faster and makes time worthwhile. Find something you love, something that makes you actually want to keep, not just suffer through, living. All the other things, just let them go. They won't make you any happier, and colleges won't be impressed by something you don't feel passionately about. </p>
<p>I hope this helps. If it doesn't, well, then I just humiliated myself anonymously for no reason. But really, I have the greatest of faith in you. Just keep going, and you won't have to face any regrets later on.</p>