<p>Whew! Son just returned from SATs. Thumbs up! Hope ETS doesnt pull another weird one on us. It is raining here :(.</p>
<p>(sorry for the long post - multiple responses here)</p>
<p>SBDad:</p>
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Why do you think it would have gone unnoticed? Your D has demonstrated remarkable achievement by any standard.
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Because tons upon tons of other kids have done likewise, and there are just too few seats to give them all spots in the highest, most visible colleges. Also, the other kids havent had to deal with the stigma and low expectations my kids have to deal with, due to attitudes remaining from history. I mean, my kids have millions of people in their own country, people with a lot of power, who think they ought not be here and who have formed groups all over the nation that plot to get rid of them. So I dont think they are as free and are not as much expected as white kids to move about and try new things, and gain new experiences. Okay, my kids think they are as free as anyone else, and that is because I intentionally let them grow up in what I think is possibly a delusion. But I dont think they in fact are as free. So, not having as broad an experience as most very high scoring whites or asians, they likely would not have much of an edge at all when pitted against others purely on the basis of test scores and ECs. I am not exactly sure about all this. I am still experimenting with it. But it is my sense of it based on my observations so far.</p>
<p>Marite:
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I wonder how many kids have looked at Condi Rice or Colin Powell and said, "Wow! I could be like them, too." I hope lots.
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It is not just kids. I am not terribly conservative, and I am not terribly liberal either. I just take my stand as I see it, and often am not in agreement with anyone. But say what you want against Bush, the man did a fantastic thing when he chose these black folks to help lead America. And you know what? It was just great to see Colin Powell knife playing against Rumsfeld and getting hit and pushed around and hitting back as if race had nothing to do with anything.</p>
<p>lkf725
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Drosselmeier, you are very well spoken and I appreciate your points. You don't sound as if you had to raise your children in crime-ridden urban schools.
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Thankfully I worked to avoid this by teaching the kids myself.</p>
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It makes me wonder, though, why you say "my little black daughter" in the "sea of high scoring whites and asians?" It sounds as if you think your child might drown! She is not little and she is not inadequate. Your daughter was very high scoring and capable. Your children would very likely be admitted to any school even without AA.
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I am not sure about this for the reasons I mentioned above. There are only so many seats, and when you consider that people are fighting for those seats from all over the world, I just dont see how without AA my kids have much of a chance, no matter how high they score. </p>
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How would you feel if your children were disadvantaged by income?
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Well they are, and I feel awful about it. I am trying hard to fix it, but it just seems pretty hard to do.</p>
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Would you gladly give up your kids' chance at the college of their choice to make room for a lower income student?
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Well, I consider my kids lower income students. I mean, I have eight of them and I am not exactly pulling down big bucks. But I am not complaining about any of this. It really doesnt bother me in the big scheme of things. It makes the kids more compassionate, and hungry to do well. Yet I understand what you are saying. It is very hard when you look at the matter ignoring history. To see what I see, you need to FEEL history just pushing its thumb right down on you all the time. When I walk outside my home, I am ON! ON! ON! and it does not stop until I return home. I think millions of blacks feel this. Instead of sucking it up and moving on, many just rebel against it. Some, throw in the towel and just do what feels best. No sense in delaying gratification when the future seems hopeless.</p>
<p>I may have mentioned this hear earlier, but Ill do it again because it has just stuck with me, symbolizing what I think many blacks are going through. In a study on attitudes of black youth, an interviewer asked a young black male if he thought God was white. The conversation went something like this:</p>
<p>Interviewer: So tell me. Do you think God is white?
Kid: Well, I dont think you can. I dont know much about Him.</p>
<p>But if you HAD to take a guess what would you say?
Id say Im not sure. I guess He could be, but I dont know.
But if you HAD to take a position on it. What would you say
(in anger) Yeah He white! Aint no F^&kin way He can be black!
Why do you say this?
Well just look at this Sh%t! God dont care nuthin about us!</p>
<p>I know what that kid felt. Part of me feels this, and yet the larger part of me senses that some great thing is coming out of it all and that I am a part of it. So I have some hope. Many MANY blacks have no hope at all. And that is why you see the stuff you see on the 6 oclock news.</p>
<p>When you look at history and how it just worms its way in and out of things, destroying some people in the present, and elevating others, you can understand how someone might want to do something about it and why they might look to AA. I dont personally think AA is the answer because it is unfair on the individual level. But I dont think just ending it carelessly is the answer either. Such a thing will demoralize a lot of people on the group level.</p>
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I have one other comment. You say, "without AA, the sheer bulk of non-black students with high scores would generally mean my kids, even MY kids, wouldnt stand much of a chance of getting attention and gaining access to the fine resources of the greatest universities." You would be welcome to join the club.
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I hope you are right. I have raised my kids with this assumption, even though I myself dont think I fully believe it. I am living in a constant state of horror at what I have possibly done. I have tried to teach my kids about racists and to steel them against them. But I have also told them they can climb out of here and join your club if they keep going. I will always love the colleges that accepted my daughter because those schools are confirming in my own heart that maybe I was right to do what I did. I am very sad that my daughter will have to tell most of them she wont be matriculating with them. In fact, I am grieving about this. I dread it. But I am rambling
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Most non-AA students are just a speck in the sea of applications, and many deserving kids are overlooked and don't get the chance to access the fine resources of the greatest universities. It's just supply and demand.
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Ironically, my son made this very same point last night. It is the thing that angers me about how I have raised him. He so much sees himself as an individual like everyone else, he argues that he should hve only as much a chance as anyone else. Well, okay, in a perfect and fair world maybe he is right. But he is dead wrong because this is NOT a perfect and fair world. He likely has pulled down something close to a 2400, if not a 2400. He will probably pull down four or five 800s on his SAT IIs. The boy can run a hilly mile in 4 something (4:30s? Ill ask), and he hasnt had even a minutes coaching from anyone. I think this happened only because he was allowed to grow strong in a unique environment the culture of which EXPECTED all this stuff from him. The larger culture, the one developed by American history, would have damned this boy. Yet it encourages and elevates whites. So when young whites look to see what the possibilities are, they see it quite clearly everywhere they look. And because of the ugly past, black kids cant look to these whites as their own role models. It would be nice if they could, but they cant because we Americans still dont see ourselves as one people (which is kind of why I probably reject multiculturalism). So it seems to me what we need is to get people like my boy out in front so that black kids all around him can see where they belong. That is what I think AA tries to do.</p>
<p>I am trying to put eight kids out there, one after the other. I want eight kids, all pulling down some serious performances on everything-- all the timeeverywhere and everyhow -- and all on about $25,000 a year. I want eight kids, all who work hard to give something great, something just plain magnificent to the colleges they attend. And when they leave school, I want them working with everything they have to give something that is just plain out of this world to everyone. I ultimately want to be a part of helping us blacks get out of the mess were in. My daughter says we suffer from one long multi-generational social emergency. The way I see it, AA is part of the intensive care we need to get ourselves stable enough so that we can get on long term medical care and get ourselves ultimately fixed. But, to be fair an honest, I do see the problems with AA. And it really puts me in an uncomfortable place to defend it.</p>