<p>Hey, my name's Emily and I am a second year at the University of Chicago aka the place "where fun comes to die". I've been having some trouble because last year I experienced my first major bout of depression here and went on meds and felt better this summer while I was home (only dreaded coming back and it happening again) and now I feel it coming on again. I'm really scared about this and I think part of it may be due to the facts that </p>
<h1>1 I'm a very social person and I don't feel like I've made any super close friends here like I had in high school where I could just call them up randomly and ask them out to lunch or tell them about my day. I mean I joined a sorority last year, and that helped add a lot of social opportunites and everything but I still feel like something's missing. #2 I'm very scared about my grades, I was always an overacheiver throughout my life and here I've had a very hard time and I had a 2.7 GPA at the end of my last year. My problem is that I just don't think I was working to my full potential because maybe I'm unhappy here/depressed...but then again I'm also very indecisive and question well...maybe I just don't like college? and it's not the UofC? or maybe I do like it here? And it seems this quarter that my grades have gotten worse, and I'm really scared about that... I've always wanted to go to law school and I thought going to the UofC would write my ticket but I'm getting really nervous about these grades and my attitude and lack of motivation. I really want to to well, but it just doesn't feel like it's working out. A lot of the kids here I also find to be a little arrogant and feel like they're the best thing in the world, and since I have probably entereted this school with a little bit of a handicap to begin with (I didn't come from a great public or private school or anything) I feel like my confidence in my academic ability has almost plummeted. So now I'm going back in forth in my head with the thought of transferring to the University of Miami in Ohio where my best friend Jessica is going, and where it'll be closer to my family and my boyfriend (who's long distance). But on the other end, I'm scared of the change and how this will affect my future. I wonder if I'll be able to pull it together and be happy at the UofC or bring my grades up and go to some great grad school or something or other and succeed. But then again I think it might be easier to get over this depression with my family and friends around me and then maybe I'll be able to excel at Miami. I'm just really scared because it was always my dream to go to a good school and Uchicago has a great reputation, but I just don't know if it's for me...I really want to do well in this world and I have such a great opportunity here but I just feel miserable sometimes and fear that the opportunities are falling right through my fingers. Whereas maybe if I were at Miami things might be easier and maybe I could get back on track and still get into a decent grad school. I'm just having a really hard time here and I'm wondering if anyone else has ever been faced with this situation or if anyone has any advice or input for me here. I'd really appreciate it...Thanks for reading my long message. -Emily</h1>