<p>OP, it sounds like you’re depressed. I’m sorry that most posters on here are bashing you. I was in a similar situation, with similar feelings, and the best thing for me was taking a year off and working while living at my parents’ house. At first it was a relief to be home. I was able to get treatment, and I learned that working a boring job while living with my parents wasn’t what I wanted to do with my life. I returned to college much happier and more focused. Don’t listen to anyone on here (including me). Go see a professional and map out what to do next. Hopefully your parents will help you out and money won’t be an issue.</p>
<p>^ It does sound like depression. I hope you will consider talking to someone because depression and or ADHD could be treated with therapy and medication. There is no reason to go through life feeling like this when you could feel so much better. If you are depressed the medication works miracles so please look into getting some professional help.</p>
<p>OP, how are you doing?</p>
<p>I’ve been going to my school’s counseling center. I’ve been to two sessions already and I think its helping a little bit. I still haven’t come to a completely sound decision about whether to stay or go. I’ve been to some of my classes this week but I keep putting off buying books until I’m 100% sure. So I’m getting a little nervous about how behind I’m getting since I have no books to catch up with and I’m already two weeks late. </p>
<p>I know its more logical to stay here and finish out the semester. Its just so tempting to go home, especially now that my parents think I should. My mom now thinks it would be a good idea for me to come home, so its making it harder for me. </p>
<p>I would go home and enroll in mid-semester courses. I can take like 3 general eds and just get them out of the way. And then I was thinking I could rush sororities again with my sister, since shes doing it this year - but this time really stick it out and establish a base group of friends and start up with a full load of classes in the Spring. I would study and CLEP out of math and probably some other requirements. And I’d spend my time off figuring out my major and a new graduation plan. </p>
<p>But I also feel like I’d be giving up if I just went home. I feel like I SHOULD stick out this semester, finish all my classes, make straight A’s and go from there. I’m just so scared of being unhappy. I don’t know how to make new friends here. I’m in an isolated apartment thats super far away from campus. I feel so disconnected. I really want to get involved but its really hard being away from home. I feel like at home, at least I have my family for support. My counselor said that going through hardships is what helps us grow though. So maybe I should just endure the loneliness and hard times. Its just scary.</p>
<p>As for depression, yeah, he said I could be mildly depressed from what he’s hearing of me. That scares me too. But its because of my lack of stability and all the uncertainty and transitions. I just want to settle down somewhere and stay for a long period of time. I don’t know if I want to graduate from this school, I feel like I don’t belong here - which is why I’m not sure if staying here this semester will really be that great of a thing for me, when I could be at home making new friends and having a lot less anxiety. </p>
<p>I’m seriously unsure right now, but I’m running out of time. I need to make a decision by the end of today. Actually before, because I need to buy books if I’m staying. I have a lot of thinking to do. And THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone who’s posted helpful answers, I really am reading and taking in everything that’s being said and its helping me a lot.</p>
<p>Let us know what you decide. I hope you get what you want.</p>