I screwed myself over.

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<p>I've always wanted to post about this, but this is the first time that I've decided to do something about it because I can no longer run away from reality.</p>

<p>I'm currently 23, graduated high school back in 2008, went to SUNY Albany and was suppose to graduate 2012. Long story short, I was always underachieving and just wanted to get my degree and be done with college. My overall GPA was terrible, around 2.1 each semester and I was constantly in the danger zone of being academically dismissed because my first semester I had a 0.88 GPA. Several times I've asked myself if it was worth it. But I decided to carry on because of my parents back home. </p>

<p>First Semester of Senior year back in college, and everything started out great, then out of nowhere I just lost the motivation to continue studying. I've started to sleep late, get detached from my friends, and thought to myself that college was starting to get worthless.</p>

<p>Needless to say, I was kicked out of college via academic dismissal. I currently have 86 credits out of the 120 that I need to graduate. Along with several D's and C's. My overall GPA right now is 1.77... Yeah, I messed up bad.</p>

<p>After getting kicked out, I didn't dare to tell my parents. So I pretended I had another semester, and just went back and lived in the dorms for a semester. It was the most depressing couple of months I experienced, nothing to do, felt disconnected from the world. I seriously wanted to go back and study harder, but it was too late.</p>

<p>I told my parents that I didn't have enough credits to graduate, they were very upset. My father stopped talking to me for almost 3 months, and my mother just hit rock bottom on her disappointment towards me.</p>

<p>It's been a year now. I have worked at several odd jobs over this time but my parents still want me to get my bachelors degree. I don't have a whole lot of money. And right now I really regret what I did when I was so foolish and naive. </p>

<p>I live in Queens of New York City, I just want to know what my options are towards obtaining the bachelor's degree so I can put this behind me once and for all.</p>

<p>My parent's are well off and paid for my college tuition along with rent and pocket money. I don't want to take anymore money from them anymore, bad enough that I am still living with them.</p>

<p>Helpful suggestions are welcome, thank you for your time and attention towards this little rant.</p>

<p>Sincerely,</p>

<p>YT</p>

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<p>Toxic, it is a hopeful sign that you have shared this. Sounds like it has been a rough road. Congratulations on the maturity and insight that you have gained along the way. Many kids are – as you put it – “foolish and naive”. I don’t know you well enough to know if you were at the time, but right now you certainly sound neither foolish nor naive.</p>

<p>It is gratifying to me as a parent to hear that you care so much for your own parents. </p>

<p>Now onto the hard part: Perhaps going along half-heartedly in order to please them means there is more beneath the surface for you to work on? YES you should go back to school. But maybe you need more of a sense of direction, ie, career path, in order for the motivation to be e deeply rooted? </p>

<p>Surely CUNY is an option, if not, there must be other courses you can take – and pass with good grades – in order to qualify.</p>

<p>However it also sounds liek you could benefit from taking care of yourself…exploring your preferred areas of study or professional development…seeing someone who can help you to move ahead, like a counselor, minister or wise friend.</p>

<p>Good luck to you!</p>

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<p>I would agree with momcinco’s advice, in particular talking to a counselor. I would start at one of the CUNY admissions offices or academic advising. Colleges have lots of resources for young people like you. You have to want to finish your degree; your parents wanting it is not enough. If you were my kid AND you told me that you were ready to go back and finish, I would have you sit down with an academic advisor to find out where you stand and what it will take to finish. I might also recommend that you look at a program that is focusing on working and going to school: maybe someplace with co-ops. </p>

<p>Best wishes.</p>

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<p>Thank you very much for your input, I’ll see what the local schools and CUNY can do. Thank you once again.</p>

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<p>Thank you, I’ll call up my local colleges and see what the options are.</p>

<p>Thank you for your time.</p>