<p>Solo, Your mind and body are telling you to take a time-out and get back to basics. The anxiety, panic attacks, and suicidal ideation are too much to handle alone. Have you looked into counseling? By trying so desperately to return to school, you are basically just covering up what has gotten you to this point. Make a different plan, one that includes therapy and time to get back to healthy habits. Small steps. Life isn’t a race, so try not to be so hard on yourself and allow some healing to begin. Hugs to you.</p>
<p>Solo, be gentle with yourself. Please take some time to get help. You will be able to further your education at the right time. This is not the right time. Do you have any family members you can talk to? Any adults in your life? I note your screen name and I hope you don’t feel solo is the way you need to be. Please, get help.</p>
<p>Counseling can help you get back on track.</p>
<p>The thing is that all these feelings that are affecting me have only came out the second I lost my education. At the start of the semester I was a completely different person. Happy, always energetic, outgoing as I had something going for me. Now that I lost it I have nothing to live for. I have overcame the death of my family members and have never been an emotional one in my life(besides as of late). My purpose was to get that degree and do well and I don’t want to end up 25-30 finally getting a degree. I want to get my life going while I’m young. I’m going to do everything possible to go to school fall 2013 and this is why I need your help. I understand and thank you all for your advice but for some people time off for years to work isn’t right. But if you insist that from now to fall 2013 is my time off. </p>
<p>Right now I’m thinking of appealing to a University in january and speaking with them. Perhaps asking them to look at my high school marks as they are very good and ask if they will accept me in their buiness program(at this school everyone that leaves high school automatically goes in first year buiness). Then after doing well I could transfer for second year buiness at my old university(I am kicked out twice from the faculty of arts, not the buiness program as I have never applied).</p>
<p>Or second I have to do a year of community college and get good marks so I can go to that new univeristy than eventually transfer into my old one and get in the buiness program.</p>
<p>Right now those are my two options. I’m just hoping that the new univeristy will take me.</p>
<p>I understand that you have a renewed sense of commitment and want to go right back into things. The concern is that if you push ahead on all cylinders that you will end up depleting yourself, and then end up where you are now. A counselor can help you stay steady and help you prevent bumps in the road. And, if a problem does come up (for example, you find yourself slipping back and not attending classes), you can work with a counselor to get back on course. I would say set that up first, and then you can come up with an academic plan for fall 2013.</p>