<p>My mom doesn't want to talk about college, ever. She doesn't know what a FAFSA is. She would rather talk about how my SAT is so good when I think its not because of the kids on here.
I got a 2010. I didn't really work for it. I think that's good.
I haven't hung out with my friends in weeks. I miss them and I feel like they just don't care and that they would rather not invite me along.
I don't have straight As. I have like 3 Bs. I've accepted the fact that I'm just nit as smart as all of you and its a great blow to my ego.
I wish I wasn't a try hard. I wish I didn't have dreams of the Ivy League, even though I can't afford it and I'm probably not good enough.
I don't know what I want to do with my life and I know it affects my school work. Why bother getting an A if I don't care about it?
I hate all the pressure I feel from my family to do well and surpass my classmates when they have it easier. I never got accelerated because my mom never asked. She never asked because she never cared.
Other kids have it easier than me. You know the last time I had a sit down dinner? I don't.
I miss when my mom would ask me about my day and listen and not just wait to tell me about her work drama.
I want my mom to look at a college and see the potential and not the dollar sign.
I wish I had time to date. I would like to know how a high school romance should work.
I want to tour the world and learn languages and make friends in every country.
I don't want to be president. I don't want to be a lawyer. I don't want to be a politician. I don't really want to be a doctor. My family wants me to be these things, but I have my own dreams that they don't Care about.
I just want to show up to school and tell every teacher what I really think.
I want to drop my advanced English class because I hate my teacher and I honestly despise him and his family.
I don't want to take 30 APs. I will be happy with the 6 I will take.
I will survive if I don't get into elite schools. I wasn't raised with money or with a dad. I could live with a state school.
I don't care if you read this or not. I don't care if you troll or comment. This wasn't for any of you. This was for me.
P.S. I just want to bake a cake with rainbows and sunshine. I want things to be like they were in Kindergarten when everyone was friends.</p>
<p>Be happy. Do your best. Enjoy your life. Don’t waste too much time here. I’m tired of neurotic kids. God bless.</p>
<p>And this, my fellow CCers, is how you write. No need to agonise over style, lexicon, verbiage or diction. Just write from the heart, and let your voice shine through. That’s what I try to tell the kids I tutor, but no one listens to me; they all seem to think that writing can be formalized and standardized, so seeing things like this really makes me happy. </p>
<p>And ik I didn’t respond to your post at all. Sorry lol.</p>
<p>Try not to be so hard on yourself. Not to be rude, but I think it’s funny that the average CCer thinks that he or she is unable to live up to other CCers; we’re all human, we all have flaws, Stephen Hawking will always be intellectually superior to all of us, et cetera, so there’s no need to put yourself down just because some kids understand math better, or can memorize what President belonged to which decade more quickly, or whatever else. Focus on your strengths, focus on who you are, and try to better the weaknesses that matter to <em>you</em> personally… not what “should” matter.</p>
<p>Your 2010 is great; imo, anything 1800+ is great. You have B’s, not D’s; be happy that you’re capable of such grades with the classes that you’re taking. Thousands of kids try harder than you do to grasp content significantly easier than that learned in your average AP class, and some of them still can’t get good grades… be thankful for what you have. </p>
<p>I can’t say anything about family because I’m detached from my own, but if your relationship with your mother means that much to you, tell her. Sit her down and say what you’ve said here, but make sure she understands what you’re saying/where you’re coming from. To ensure that she <em>does</em> know where you’re coming from, ask her (respectfully, as hard as it can be) to tell you what your point is. It may or may not be the polar opposite of what you’re trying to get across.</p>
<p>Also, it’s probably not that she doesn’t care; it’s just that you’re already more than good enough in her eyes, and she doesn’t see a need to push you any further. Or she sees that you clearly have enough drive to push yourself. Or she thinks that you’re pushing yourself too hard. There are tons of possibilities… if she hasn’t said that she flat-out doesn’t care, try to give her the benefit of the doubt.</p>
<p>I hope things get brighter for you soon.</p>
<p>Edit: I realize that I said “try” a lot in this post, but I guess that further drives my point that sometimes your best efforts don’t produce optimal results. Which is okay. Sometimes “failing” is more fun than succeeding anyhow.</p>
<p>Harden up dude. You want to do all these things, but you don’t want to work hard? Guess what life isn’t free. And don’t say other kids have it easier. Please.</p>
<p>I know you sound extremely sappy but honestly, you get it. Life sucks sometimes. High school sucks the life out of you sometimes. If you can change something to make you feel better, do it. If you can’t, well, then you just have to bear it. It may or may not get better, but don’t fool yourself into thinking that it absolutely will. The world isn’t there to nurture you, but learn that that’s okay. </p>
<p>I sound like I’m high but basically, sadness is okay and I understand it.</p>
<p>Congratulations, you’re normal!</p>
<p>You’re not the only one. They say it is always bad before it gets good.</p>
<p>But, if you still don’t know about what you want for yourself, go out and find **** out for yourself once in a while, eh.</p>
<p>I’m in almost the same situation, but with extra family problems. I know how you feel, how miserable it can be, how jealous you can get when other people’s parents talk to their kids and discuss school and their future. Or when someone tells you when you’re asking them for advice about school, to talk to your parents and how it breaks your heart because you know they don’t care. But trust me, you will get through it. You’ll learn so much in the process that you never thought you could. I don’t really know what else to say, because I stink at comforting people, but just know that you are not alone, there are other people struggling for someone to care about them and their future just like you.</p>
<p>Even the reasons your life is unspectacular are unspectacular. :/</p>
<p>So, some perspective.</p>
<p>People have parents who don’t care at all about, or worse, hate their children. You don’t have parents like those. So.</p>
<p>People have grades that are really high, not because they’re smart, but because they are special needs classes. They don’t struggle with the fact that they are mediocre; they struggle with the fact that they aren’t even that. So.</p>
<p>i think you get the pattern of this post i can stop now</p>
<p>^
Whatever problem you have, someone will always have a worse one. This isn’t news to anybody.</p>