<p>It's a TERRIBLY LONG RANT. Please forgive me. I realize after typing this 10-page essay out that it doesn't even have much to do with the thread title. </p>
<h2>VERY SORRY. SIGH. </h2>
<p>Prompted by Valentine's Day of course, but not quite directly. </p>
<p>Anyway, I was watching Sleepless in Seattle tonight and I only watched the first half where she just suddenly changes heart cuz of something called "fate." Of course, it got corny and more unbelievable then and I turned off the TV, just to wonder about my own situation.</p>
<p>I know that "falling in love at first sight" is a movie thing. It's Hollywood, the fantasy romantic storyline, etcetcetc. I used to think it was shallow, the most unbelievably fake thing in the world, and something people just think about cuz they were rebounding some other relationship or something. </p>
<p>But lots of perceptions change when they happen to you in real life. You cannot deny this happens to you with lots of other stereotypes too.</p>
<p>So let me tell you my situation. I can tell you right now I'm trying my best to speak about this in the most objective way possible. I am seriously not trying to pull out correlations or blow them up in proportion just to work in my favor.</p>
<p>Anyway, there is this guy I met once at a conference. Long story short, we were attached to each other almost immediately at the conference. I don't know why, but he looked a lot like my 3rd grade crush...which is why I got attracted to him in the first place. I thought he was the same guy, but when I asked it turned out he wasn't. He went to a school 30 miles away.</p>
<p>Throughout the conference, we stuck to each other pretty much the entire time. We were shy people and we didn't really do much talking outside of our little space. We got assigned to the same group (which was interesting..out of the 160 people, we were assigned to the same group of 8) and all the people in our group could feel we liked each other or something. Last day of the 4 day conference, there was a dance. You can imagine what happened there.</p>
<p>After four days, we said our goodbyes. I never thought I would see him again. It was August 2007.</p>
<p>Zoom to April 2008. We still kept in contact, but were busy with Junior/Senior year (i was a junior and he was a senior). He suddenly asks me in our conversation if I want to go to Senior Ball with him. I, flabbergasted, say I'd have to think about it. After all, he lived 30 miles away. My parents, who are overprotective to the max, were likely to reject it. I saw a 10% chance I would be allowed to go.</p>
<p>Two weeks later, after a bunch of persuading, I was allowed to go. My friends were surprised. Even my mom was surprised my dad would allow me to go. </p>
<p>May 2008, we saw each other for the 2nd time of our lives. He apparently went without his friends, so we spent the night together just having fun and all that romantic crap lol. I was really surprised -- I didn't know he was the only one from his group of friends that actually took the initiative to go...because of me? I don't know lol. Later, I fell asleep on his shoulder on the limo, wishing it missed my stop so it could last for 30 mins longer.</p>
<p>It did miss my stop.</p>
<p>And so I got back cuz his dad drove me home. I got back home at 1 am, put the corsage on my bedside, and went to sleep.</p>
<p>That was the last time I ever saw him. Now he's 2000 miles away in his college and enjoying life there. </p>
<p>The thing that bugs me the most about this entire thing is just the whole "fate" thing.
1) I almost didn't go to this conference -- only after the committee decided that late applications were accepted was I allowed to go
2) I got assigned in the same group.
3) He looked like my 3rd grade crush. Only guy in my life who's ever looked like him.
4) It seemed very much that he liked me back. My group mates couldn't have been imagining things
5) He asked me to senior ball, despite the millions of other people nearer to him he could have asked. Plus my parents let me go. This was seriously 1:1,000,000 chance.
6) What I wished for came true. We missed my stop. We also had a really nice night together.</p>
<p>Point and said, We've only met each other twice and what happens in a relationship normally has condensed into a ridiculous time block of a total of 5 days. I know we liked each other and I know this would have developed if we had lived closer together. And I really am not a person to push things and neither does he. We're both really shy people and we're not bloodthirsty for love. I just think fate is playing with me, letting ALL these things happen. I mean, one way or another, lots of things could have happened and I would have never known him in the first place. </p>
<p>I dunno. After I type this all out, you probably think I'm just all stupid. Even I think I'm stupid. I like this guy obviously, he's shown signs of liking me back, it's just retarded cuz of distance. His high school was way too far away from mine and now his college is way farther to the max.</p>
<p>Sigh, sorry for going all emo/rant on you guys. I just want some advice or some person to respond. I feel retarded for going on CC and spilling my guts out.</p>
<p>I hope you understand. Thanks in advance to anyone who applies. I feel slightly better now.</p>