<p>I’m a transfer student to UC Davis majoring in Psychology and I’ve started school in Fall 2010, it took a lot of adjustments to adapt to a quarter system from a semester system. Fall quarter of 2010, I did terrible, my GPA was at 1.50. So I was placed an academic disqualification, and that placed a lot of pressure on me of course because I was placed on contract. Then I took classes the next quarter trying my best to pull my GPA up, but I fell short. It was heart-breaking, I literally teared up seeing the devastating grade that got me dismissed from the institution. </p>
<p>I’ve went to see the advisor and they’ve put me on summer contract to pull my grades up and unfortunately, I have to pay for summer tuition fees out of my own pockets let alone living a school-less quarter (3 months) without financial aid to help cover for living expenses. My girlfriend was supportive about my situation and offered to help me pay 2 months worth of rent by taking out loans since she was still in school. </p>
<p>I did not had the courage to tell my family I was kicked out from school since no child would ever want to let their family down, so I had to live a lie. My roommate from high school just graduated during that Spring quarter when I was dismissed, it was quite depressing to witness successors that I was suppose to graduate with as a class of 2011 graduate while I was not even in school. I tried to be optimistic and let myself know that this kind off success can be achieved.</p>
<p>I had to borrow around 13k just for summer tuitions and living expenses to be covered, even though I felt terrible guilty, the amount of money borrowed from my parents and siblings motivated me to give everything I got in summer. Remarkably, I pulled through and got myself back into the system, just when I thought my nightmare was over, I missed the deadline to submit re-enrolment application for fall quarter, so I had to live another 3 school-less months. I was excited and focused to get everything together as I tried to change to Human Development Major, I made sure I attended office hours, completed extra credits when offered to eliminate all excuses that will possible get me kicked out of school again.</p>
<p>In the end, I’ve failed again and my nightmare repeated once more! I was dismissed from Spring quarter AGAIN! I felt like everything was going well, I studied hard, and did everything I could. I felt completely helpless by my D letter grade and I had to see an advisor. It was the same cycle and procedure for this summer; pulling myself back up again. The advisor showed pity and understood that everyone around me is graduating and I just wanted to get everything done, she said that I’ve already maxed out on Junior College units and that I must get it done here at UC Davis. </p>
<p>This tragedy has returned on haunt me, I had planned to live with my girlfriend’s former house-mates and my current house-mates but I’m afraid I will have to back out on them. Realizing time is ticking, I’ve applied to 10 different jobs since I was completely desperate for income for summer school tuition fees and not having to back out on my buddies for leasing.</p>
<p>That’s when I had to think to myself, what must I really really do? Live a lie again and ask my family for another 14k or just take my room-mate’s advice about “davis not being the right school for me”. My girlfriend was being supportive and realistic, she notices that this is the second tragedy, she stated that it is highly possible that even if I pull through summer classes with good grades, I might not survive Fall quarter to stay in school permanently with a “good standing”. By then, everything is rock bottom since I will be banned from all UC institutions and I will be school-less for 6 months to deal with rent not being covered by financial aid, my girlfriend will not be able to back me up either since she’s done with school. </p>
<p>My high school buddies that are 5th years just graduated today as well. I am happy for their success but comparing myself to where they are just makes me unhappy, insecure, hopeless, and depressed. What I doing with my life? I’ve wasted so much time here in Davis, and disappointed myself and my family. Even though I am in definite discouragement, I feel that the right thing to do is just to move back home and look for another alternative.</p>
<p>If you have attended or currently attending UC Davis, an alumni, or have encountered the same road block that I am currently experiencing, please do not hesitate to give me some wise words of advice.</p>