<p>I honestly feel like ****, parents, bad grades, Ivy League Pressure (Living up to standards) Competition with friends, condescending, past regrets, bullied, horrible influence, lack of potential, waste time, procrastination.
Everything is just gradually stabbing my chest, yearning for me to just give up..
On top of that, my parents loathe me right now. Grades are dropping significantly and I failed my midterm. Past memories from the past haunt me, bullied, negative influence. I always seem to be nostalgic at any given moment. </p>
<p>Ah.. I'm nostalgic as well all of the time..I moved to CA when I was 11 and miss where I lived before, and my old friends terribly.. I feel like I'm not really connected to anyone..and the weather is awful. It was 96 degrees today..just..why? I also feel like I'm never going to get into the college/med school I want and suceed. But, I try to keep it in perspective..</p>
<p>^CA was 96 degrees because of global warming. =(?</p>
<pre><code> There are always some unpleasant things in our past. So, let them go! By keeping hope in our hearts, we start anew with a positive attitude.
Each day, every week, every month and every year is a new beginning and a new page.
Everyone has had the self-centered experience of thinking "I'm worse off than anyone else. Why do these terrible things all happen to me?"
If we are able to look at things objectively, we will discover that everyone has trouble and we are lucky in comparison.
When the rain stops, the sky clears and a rainbow appears. Our troubles pass and life is beautiful and bright again.
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<p>Yes, do away with your attitude. You need a hobby that will bring your joy up. Something that you enjoy doing, and I'm not talking about something to put on your college resume. maybe you enjoy swimming or skydiving, I like to program on the computer. A hobby that will always be there, no matter how bad you feel. You just need something to look forward to, or life is a waste of time. You need something to clear out the stress built up inside your body. If you continue doing what you're doing, more stress will build and build. Your performance is probably lacking, and studying even harder might not even help if you aren't motivated.</p>