<p>So, I have never been a relationship before, but I TOTALLY know what it's like to lust over people.
Wanting them. Only them, but only their body b/c they're hot.
That to me is not love. Or true feelings.</p>
<p>When I moved into college this year, I was like "yes! Finally! A roommate I can get along with." And I noticed he was cute, but it wasn't a lust kind of feeling I was just like he is really handsome and nice.</p>
<p>Then I started going through a little bit of a crush phase but it was mixed where I wouldn't lust over him but I would want to talk to him about his life and stuff.</p>
<p>Recently, (we've been in college for over a month,) I have begun to think I MIGHT be falling for him. And I don't know what to do! I say this because: He has made me re-learn my passion for classical piano, he plays it all the time, I love it when he speaks because he has a deep european voice (he's from the romania/bulgaria area.)</p>
<p>A few of my friends asked me to decribe what I felt LATELY...and I hav enever felt like this before, it's just a genuine like for him. I want to cook for him and hold his hand and walk on the beach with him--there is none of this "omgah he just touched my arm," that almost seems childlike to me now. It's deeper. For me. I don't know what's going on in his head. I don't think he has ANY clue...simply because I'm trying to keep it under wraps b/c i'm like 10 feet away from him at all times!</p>
<p>But, I don't know. He'snice, funny, warm, smart, and I want to take care of him and be with him. I can't explain the other feelings I have, like I HAVE to be with him. I don't know. It's so hard to.</p>
<p>what do you think??</p>