hello all! new here and im not good at internet sharing but i will try. i am completely lost. my family is a trade family. not a single person in my family has gone or applied to a 4yr+ college. we are far from unintelligent most of us have gone to 2 yr trade schools and honed our trade through work. my son is a 1st gen ( on both sides of his family) to seek out a college education. in high school he was very successful never earning anything less than an A- in any class. He was focused self starting and did well planning and juggling his own schedule. along with regular classes( a few AP classes) He was part of the general band, marching band, a wind ensemble, a jazz band and orchestra as well as football and tae kwon do all 4 years. he earned a 3.88 gpa and graduated yellow roped and with music honors. he applied to only one college which is a nice college that we live ~20 mins from. it is not a community college. When he approached me with his college goals he asked to stay home and commute as well as work. i agreed to not charge rent and help him with things like food gas money and his phone/internet bill. i agreed because i thought (and still do) he was well prepared for college, mentally, grade wise, mature. minus the $ as he is currently solely dependent on federal loans . he has for the most part stayed true to his word he comes home most nights ( nights he does stay out are mainly school related band camps social activities for student body a couple of weekends for friends birthdays), packs a cooler for food for the day, monitors his money and time wisely, keeps a tidy room. hes always grateful if i leave him a plate of food or folded laundry on his bed. he has not had major attitude changes as the college warned me that might happen.
however he is struggling bad. mid terms he did ok no failed classes but seriously a dip in grades than what he did in high school nothing higher than a C-. which i think this alone hurt his morale. semester grades came out over holiday break and are far less than stellar including 3 failed “F” classes. he owned up and agreed with me when i had said he didnt take advantage of help courses or tutors. He is determined to go 2nd semester and talk to whomever at the school about switching his classes and getting things fixed. his school is not parent friendly, they were when he was enrolling but then it flipped. parents get an email notification on mid term grades, semester grades, any “academic probation issues” and billing thats it. i dont see this as a letting go issue or me wanting to solve this for him ( as it never was my way) and i am trying my best to support him in his decision but im not sure how. i am a single parent. my support network either has no history with colleges or hasnt had any yet. im kinda floating out here on my own. my main worry is loss of the $ because of federal loans. im worried im suffocating/babying him by allowing him to live here free of charge. although i see no signs of abuse of this privilege do stop helping? am i doing to little in the helping department? Do i force him to drop? ( this is kinda impossible as no one can force another) how can i help him with understanding the federal loans ? will they continue to pay 2nd semester even if he didnt pass the 1st? what am i missing? any words of wisdom any direction might help me put my mind at ease im not opposed to reading/listening/learning i just dont know where to turn for the information.