<p>I got accepted into UTSG into psychology out of a random notion that psychology will help me find out what i wanna do(and yea that didn't turn out too well). Like the frustrated teen going through his final years in high school, i pushed forward and yea now i'm in my first week in U of T taking psychology and a hell lot of electives as an international student. Yes, international. I pay $37k with minimal bursaries/grants/awards. </p>
<p>Parents are just proud i got into U of T. We got enough money for about three years in U of T and it's predicted to rise by a whopping 10% in tuition fees. Thus, parents expect me to make the best out of my year in U of T, get scholarships for psych and study study study. In truth, i haven't fully figured it all out yet and i am not ready to commit to something. I wanted my first year to be just to do a little major/soul-searching whilst keeping up with my grades to an average. </p>
<p>The pressure, the guilt and the ambiguity. They are all weighing me down. And yea they do not joke about U of T being heavily academic, my first week, i'm already studying and staying up late for homework. Off to a great start here. Now, i am just wishing the world would slow down a bit so i can have that little bit of extra time to figure things out. My contingency plan right now is to switch to another university but you know, if i were to do that, there goes first year. I will be able to go for a full 4 years in college like i want but i believe that the courses i chose in my first year in U of T will need to connect with what i chose in the chosen university. So much for getting out of psych but hey, at least academics would weigh down a bit. But you know what, i really don't know. I need help. Can anybody in Toronto or who knows about colleges in Toronto especially U of T St George out in this? The pressure is just killing me. I can't get a wink of sleep at night.</p>
<p>P.S i wanted to consult to a psychologist in U of T because it's free but i needed my health insurance with me, which is back in my country a thousand miles away. </p>