<p>I'm pretty sure I have some learning disability such as ADHD, because my study/sleep/concentration habits are SO chronically bad that they're affecting my ability to be healthy and do homework on time, get good grades, etc. and it's just been a pretty miserable school year thusfar. I can't go to sleep before 4am most days and I end up sleep deprived, I have SEVERE problems getting myself to do my homework until after midnight (and even when I do do it, I can't get myself focused on it and get distracted the whole time and never end up finishing it). I can never listen in class at all or pay attention for long periods of time and I always feel like fidgeting/moving around. People have been telling me that I change topics in conversation so rapidly without even finishing off one topic. I'm really bad at organization. I take an unnecessarily long time on tests (math, especially) and sometimes don't even get halfway through them. Also this year, I've just completely lost all motivation to do my schoolwork well. In fact, the only things I can concentrate on are things I'm passionate about and find really interesting, but even things like that lose me after a while.
Forgive me if I'm wrong, but I'm pretty certain that at least some of these are symptoms of ADHD, right? The only thing is, these symptoms just started showing up (so severely) in 2nd semester of sophomore year. Before then, and especially when I was younger, I was a very conscientious student who always got her homework done on time and never got distracted.</p>
<p>The problem is, my parents think ADHD is some huge BS joke. If I asked them if I could see a doctor for a diagnosis, they'd probably flip out and threaten to cut off my health insurance or something. It's not worth trying to convince them anything because they won't even hear me out, and they're so into their heads that they won't listen to ANYONE who tells them otherwise, even if it's a a professional doctor or a guidance counselor.</p>
<p>Is there any way I could go see a doctor who specializes in this without my parents finding out, and getting a diagnosis without them finding out either? </p>
<p>I don't want to sound as if I'm looking for an excuse, but I'm basically bombing first semester of junior year and if I really do have some sort of learning challenge, I want to explain to colleges that that's what factored into the bad grades.<br>
It's really affecting me and I want to get some sort of help before I continue to have such unhealthy habits into college and keep getting awful grades, doing away with my chances at good colleges. I'm definitely capable of doing work in rigorous classes if I manage my time and stop getting distracted (in fact, I would find them easy), but due to my habits, I completely slack off, ruin my health with sleep deprivation, stress myself out with procrastination, and more.</p>