<p>I just finished my first semester, but it was incredibly difficult to get through and I do not want to go back in a few days. I like my school but I am having an extremely hard time being so far from home (4-5 hours) and have been suffering from a significant amount of anxiety. I had anxiety issues throughout high school, but during senior year my anxiety problems were significantly lessened (practically nonexistent) and I thought I would be able to handle being so far from home. Unfortunately, it is so far appearing that is not the case. Once I got on campus to start freshman year, it became pretty apparent that my anxiety was back. I talked to my parents about it and at first they said to stick out the first semester and if I really wanted to I could transfer at the end of the semester. It was very difficult at first, but I managed to settle in a little bit, but the anxiety came back pretty badly a few weeks before thanksgiving and I decided I wanted to transfer after all, either to state school or CC. My parents did not like this idea and are now making me stay until the end of second semester and they said they will support me transferring, just at the end of the year. I am completely dreading going back and totally unsure what to do. On one hand, I would like to stay and finish out this first year at least--I do like the school academically and I have made good friends there and I do not want to look back and regret leaving. A part of me feels like it would be failing if I came home and that notion, along with the anxiety I have at school, is making me so depressed. I also feel like if I came home I would never be able to get the college experience I've always wanted. On the other hand, I am totally dreading going back and have been wildly depressed thinking about spending another 15 weeks--especially in horrible New England weather--at school with the anxiety. I am unsure what to do so any help would be appreciated. </p>
<p>Also at school I did go to the counseling center but did not find it to be helpful, and I try to maintain a regular workout regime which I found extremely helpful at first, but it certainly did not eliminate my problems.</p>