The next several weeks are not going to be fun
- not meant as reply, I just hit wrong button.
The next several weeks are not going to be fun
i canāt believe youāre pushing me to take the SAT when it literally doesnāt matter in my state anymore and almost no college across the country is giving a damn about the SAT. yes Iām putting all my effort into staying afloat during this damn pandemic. Iām trying to juggle my 3 AP classes while staying at least competent with my multiple extracurriculars. this whole MONTH is an important month for speech and debate and Iām just trying my best to show up to tournaments, much less actually make it to states. my mental health is drained and has been for the last year. Iāve not been to irl school since march and i miss my friends. my anxiety and depression has gotten worse and worse. and being stuck at home for a year has just shown me your true colors. i canāt believe my own family are homophobic and enby / transphobic when during this pandemic Iāve discovered im not cis, heterosexual, or allosexual and i canāt even say a damn thing without outing myself. AND Iāve met some of my best friends online but you scorn my interest in kpop when i use it as a coping mechanism and i use twitter to communicate with friends that are queer and help me to learn my own identity. Iām trying to make my ecs seem at least competent when you banned me from taking place in extracurriculars at all during sophomore year just because i had a boyfriend. and now iām overloading myself with 4 ecs with 2 more added next school year. and yes i know the SAT will help me but the fact of the matter is that itās not going to matter much in the future. Iām not that dumb but you seem to think that Iām literally not going to make it to college if i donāt take the SAT. Iām the one that has worked hard to do well in my classes, Iāve tried my hardest to do well in my extracurriculars all while being depressed and anxious. and all youāve done is limit my computer time so that i have 3.5 hours daily to get to all my meetings, do homework, and god forbid i have any free time left after doing all that. and youāve SHRUNK my tablet time to 3 hours ?? so that i can have even less downtime and i can barely talk to my friends. Iām so so so tired of this.
I have never felt such a sense of relief as I do right now. Today is the first anniversary of my fatherās death, my mother is finally 14 days post second vaccine and my son just got in to a school that he wanted so much he couldnāt even talk about it because we thought it would be a lottery this year. Dad - We are doing okay.
Watching a segment on the news about how hard it is for older people to book a vaccine. They talked about a man in his 80ās who walked into a pharmacy and wanted to book an appointment for a vaccine. He was told he could only do it by computer. When he said he didnāt have a computer, he was told to get help from a family member. He said he doesnāt have any family members. And he left. My heart is broken. How is it okay to set up a system that leaves out the very people who need help the most? I am so proud of the people who are working to change this. Our local transport service has been coordinating on-bus clinics for their regular riders, picking them up/taking them home - the people interviewed have said that they would not have been able to book or get to an appointment on their own. This situation is exposing the things we need to fix, and I love seeing how people are trying to fix what they can.
I donāt know how you decide stuff like that but I can see it being the main contributor to your stress.
You are perpetually angry. Almost every post you make is negative and hate-filled. How can you live like that?
Iām really sorry for you but Iām more sorry for your wife. This is not going to go well for her. Itās going to be a dreadful year.
Wow, the rudeness I see in New England still catches me by surprise even though Iāve lived here so long. What IS it with that? Is it the cold?
Two words: golden idol.
$500,000 no questions asked to the people who shot your dog walker? Not exactly the kind of incentive that protects walkers of celebrity dogs, but hey, who doesnāt love dogs?
Huge props to the Indianapolis principal who took the time to find out why his student wouldnāt remove his hat, then touched up the young manās hair when he found out that the problem was a haircut. Listening without judging, then finding a way to help. We need more like him.
Dear dumb electric co. Stop shaming us for using 8% more energy than our āmost efficient neighbors.ā Betcha those neighbors donāt have an EV. Betcha they still drive those gas guzzling behemoths. Canāt wait to go solar so you would shut the freak up. Peace.
Need some snow in my area. Our water numbers are pretty low.
Ordering at the chick fil a drive through.
Me-Do you have caffeine free Diet Coke? Girl- yes!. Me- Yes, Iād like a large.
Girl repeats order, large Diet Coke? Me-no Iād like a caffeine free Diet Coke. Do you have? Girl-oh yes
Get the receipt, itās for Diet Coke.
Get my Diet Coke, I say I ordered the caffeine free? Kid whoās giving me my food, we donāt have caffeine free Diet Coke at this location.
Husband is embarrassed that I was annoyed with the kid handing me my food. I would have ordered the diet lemonade if I knew they didnāt have caffeine free Diet Coke.
I wonder how I could have made it clearer what I was ordering?
To all of my retired neighbors that I see while walking the neighborhood.
No itās not funny that you act all horrified and shocked that my husband and I havenāt received the vaccine. No itās not funny when you say youāll have to wait to hang out with us.
We know that! We know you are excited and delighted that youāve received your vaccine. Got it.
But seriously people, itās not funny! I know you are kidding and excited about your vaccine. But some consideration please.
Because of birthday complications I get to pick up a watch at Costco I meant to have shipped to myself and do a return of a present from Amazon to two different stores, several miles apart. Can I mention I donāt get out much during COVID? I actually have been to Costco a couple of times, but now I get to go to Whole Foods and Kohlās too. First world problems, I know.
Sorry I have let you down There is so much of this college application process that I really do not understand. I never went to college and it is showing more than ever right now. You are competing against so many who have perfectly crafted applications, community services and extra fancy sports. And some who have been able to pay a small fortune for a bigger advantage. I didnāt even know you could pay for personalized college guidance. The terminology used, major/minors etc. the way we fumbled thru finding colleges that had what you enjoy. Not knowing each college has their own area for scholarships to apply to which some are now closed already. Portals, Cumm GPAās, weighted GPAās omgeeeee I am so sorry Kiddo. We will just do our best.
Why canāt people function the way they are supposed to function? Life would be so much simpler if what made sense in every logical personās eyes would be what people naturally do.
Instead, Iāll admit to being super bummed/frustrated this morning after catching someone in a lie (multiple lies) and rather than confessing sheepishly they strike out at me with more lies and innuendos including comments about how awful I am. Awful that I just want to know the truth as a mediator between two parties who also should be close and not have problems. Itād be bad enough if it were ājustā another human, but no, itās a family member I should be close to.
It could be worse. Iām super thankful itās not H or one of my kids. But Iām bummed. Life isnāt supposed to be this way. Whereās Norman Rockwellās source for his paintings? I want to live there where everything is āright.ā I want to be able to say, āX and I are really good friends besides being related.ā
I get that you want to move out of country to escape your problems. Iām stifling a chuckle that your hoped for destination is HI.
There certainly was a gap in your education and you canāt blame it on age. You were born after 1959.
You got good news. It is something you really want. Can you just accept it instead of finding a way to be unhappy?