<p>Don’t be embarrassed. It seems that embarassement is what has been holding you back all along. This may sound wierd, but if happiness is what you are after, then you really don’t need friends or girlfriends to achieve it. Whether you have zero, one, or one hundred friends, your situation is only what you make of it. Don’t focus on trying to impress others; that is just way too much pressure. If your situation is really what you say it is, then you have nothing to lose by just getting out there and being yourself and being crazy. Friends and dates will come naturally if you do this. But ultimately, the biggest mistake that you can make is thinking that these things are prerequisites to happiness. Really, as long as you are breathing you can find something to be happy about. (excuse the oversentimentality, but I really do believe all of this)</p>
<p>PS: You can friend me if you want to.</p>