<p>I just don't care anymore. Bout anything really. God, academics, anything I do, even friends. The odd thing is, I'm having more fun now than I've ever had b4. Schools out so I'm relaxin and hangin out w/ friends when I can. But nothing seems to matter or be of any importance. not school, not friends, not helping people, not me. This might be a phase but I've been in this phase for bout a year or two now. Only time I feel alive? When I think about or am around this girl (and no, I am not a lesbian ).</p>
<p>I'm sorry, that was awful, but I couldn't help myself. :)</p>
<p>Serioulsy, you should take up writing. Although you claim to "not care" about anything you must have some feeling or ideas that you can write about. Writing is a beatiful thing, it helps me a lot.</p>
<p>I sympathize for you vtran. I think that as we get older the things that we think or are led to believe are important looses their value. Sometimes, I feel that life is a boring routine that I wish I can escape and have more fulfilling experiences. I think that girl you mention makes you feel alive because she adds zest into your life. I have friends who once I'm around them I feel happy because their fun and I can relate to them (or, at least, I want to). </p>
<p>And, having an interest would help you. Maybe an extreme sport, mountain biking seems fun.</p>
<p>definitely agree with private_joker. sometimes we just get to a point where things become redundant. </p>
<p>i was actually feeling that way last week. school finished two weeks prior and like you, i was just lazying around with friends, doing nothing that exiciting. i didn't feel like doing anything, felt like i really didn't care about things that much. </p>
<p>i guess what got me out of that rut was volunteering my time at this art gallery. i was around people with similar interests as myself, plus i learned a lesson or two. my suggestion would be to find something that you're interested in and maybe dabble in it. </p>
<p>join a club, or try something new. you'll get a chance to meet interesting people and of course do something you really believe in. maybe that'll spice up your life?</p>
<p>You sound depressed. Aww. I've been through that. I turned to reading and philisophical discussion to help wait it out. And now I'm a major nerd...</p>
<p>There could be more going on then just ennui..has something major happened in your life? What do you want to do in two years? Do you want to be doing the same thing, which, by the way, I can't think you would be able to. Cause if you don't somehow get out of this funk, you will be at home, and your friends will be off somewhere doing something.</p>
<p>Right now, you are hanging around people you don't really care about, you are not doing much...</p>
<p>If you are depressed, there are things to do- exercise, books, art...</p>
<p>Often people who don't care about anything will start drinking, doing drugs to feel something. Don't go there. It only makes it worse,not better.</p>
<p>Do you think your friends care about you? What about parents? Chilling is good for awhile, but if your disconnected with your own life continues, talk to someone;.</p>
<p>I'm very much the same. I tend to go through periods of manic behavior (perhaops not literally manic. manic just seems like the right word to use) and my grades and social life are both superb and then suddenly out of no where..I just stop and observe time and I simply just don't care. My grades then fall due to this. </p>
<p>It could be a chemical thing and it might not be. Try doing the stuff the other people here suggested (exersizing, writing, art, etc). If that fails, head over to the doctor. Beware--they like to hand people meds when they might not even need it. </p>
<p>Other than that, try to get yourself out of this 'rut' before it becomes a serious problem, assuming that could happen. Better to be safe than sorry!</p>
<p>Periods of minor depression are quite common in teens. I remember reading once that the age groups with the highest suicide rate combined are adolescent teens (15-19) and young adults (20-24/25) . That is not to say I'm targeting this at you, vtran. I'm not saying you are suicidal. I do not know your situation, but a number of teens have the same feelings as you. </p>
<p>Probably similar to you, most teens are just apathetic (not suicidal) toward their lives. There are many causes for being angry and sad. At one point in the past year, I myself have had a lot of unhealthy stress and have felt overwhelmed. After a while, I remember just giving up and not caring what happens, and in real life I'm usually happy and fun-spirited! As teens, we go through A LOT. Our problems are not NEARLY as trivial as adults make them out to be. My parents say that teens shouldn't be depressed because we don't have to worry about bills, jobs, and family, but they don't realize the difficulty of being a teen (maybe they forgot). I bet that every or nearly every teen on CC (straight A student or not) has suffered from a short period of minor depression (or some form of depression, such as anger and isolation) because of unhealthy stress and pressure. </p>
<p>The purpose for writing this is that you shouldn't feel alone vtran. Most of us have experienced this loss of passion toward things, such as family, our future, academic, that are most important to us. But, there are remedies. When I felt this way a few months ago, I turned to my music, something that belonged to me, my therapy. Although I'm definitely not a good musician, it is my aspiration to be and I found comfort when I worked toward that goal. </p>
<p>Trust this stranger vtran, most of the things we find important today will not matter tomorrow. Don't focus on these things because when they don't matter to us anymore, we'll feel that we have no purpose and become depressed. However, with an interest, you can cultivate your talent as your own and find genuine happiness from that. No one can take that away from you.</p>
<p>Yeah, when I was depressed, I started writing in my diary. Since I don't have a life to write about, I started writing philisophical things and reading a lot so I would have more information and opinions to put in it. I wrote short stories and slept and cried a lot. My parents didn't help in the least. Sometimes I wonder if they've ever experienced it. Whenever I try to tell them things they acted like it was abnormal, but who knows. Maybe its not normal to express feelings like this when you live in tribal Nigeria (which is where they are from).</p>
<p>Anyway, what I'm saying is I definately felt alone and writing did help me a bit. It wasn't a cure, but atleast my mind wasn't idle. IT did make me feel more grown up. It seemed to me everyone thought about clothes and make up and I was thinking about things that actually had some sort of substance. It made me feel superior in a way. At the same time calm and placid.</p>
<p>When I came out of it, I found that I wasn't as zealous as I used to be. My state of mind and way of thinking about life took a total 360. I feel like they've been brainwashing me my whole life (parents, public announcements, church, etc). My mom says that I have a bad attitude. An "I don't care" attitude. But I am much happier this way. Its not that I don't care. I just don't make it such an important part of my life. I let time flow by and catch everything that makes it enjoyable. I don't like it when someone says "make a goal" because it sounds too confined. Not to mention... I became a nerd... which has put a lot more depth into my life, I like to think.</p>
<p>It seems as if every parent says that about their teen at least once. When I was in my early pubescent teens (11/12), I remember starting to see the world in a new way, that there is another way of thinking contrary to my upbring. I experimented with this new perspective, combining it with my upbringing to develop MY identity (nothing rebellious). Predictably, when my parents saw that I was "changing" (as they said), they said I was developing a bad attitude, LOOOLLL.</p>
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My way of thinking, not life. Hmm... I don't really remember how I used to think. I just know it wasn't like this. Haha. I guess I should have said I had a revelation. An epiphany. :)</p>
<p>I'm not the original poster, but this post really is reassuring. It seems like everyone, especially the "smart" kids go through it. I notice though that once you come out of it, your whole philosophy and understanding of the world around you seems to be much improved. I think it just takes time.</p>
<p>LoL final star. But, I think your strategy would be easier for a guy than a girl. </p>
<p>Yah, exrunner, minor depression and apathy are so rampant. When I was going through my stage a few months ago in the school year, I felt I was the only one to have these problems, an assumption that made me worse. What better way for me to be discouraged more than to think you're the only problem child while everyone elso is "happy." After talking to my friends, I discovered nearly everyone was going through the same thing as me and were starting to breakdown.</p>
<p>I have a confession to make: I have cried myself to sleep 2 times.
lol that's the first time i've told anyone. It's like, I have so many high expectations. I don't even know what I'm going to do in the future. I don't like school. I don't like some people. And I have thought about suicide (overdosing and jumping off a building hahahahha)</p>
<p>Sometimes I feel really happy, exuberant, overjoyed, excited about life.. and other times, i feel lonely and want to be left alone. when people don't leave me alone, I get very bitter and throw an angst at them. In my 'bitter days', I feel like crying over stupid things such as - my coke is not cold so i hate my life.</p>
<p>I don't think my parents or some people don't understand what we go through. I may have millions of friends and I love them all very much but I still feel lonely.. it's very strange. I don't even think I understand.</p>