<p>Thanks for the advice, jthecanadian. </p>
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It's good that virtually hidden identities from CC care about you a lot simfish however, that doesn't stray from the fact that they are virtual identities. Even though I'm always giving advice to make others feel good on an internet forum, I am still a veiled identity who could potentially be one of millions of people on the internet. Take that into consideration before being so open on these forums.
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<p>I've been really open on CC as I felt that even if I made an incredibly stupid faux pas, I could simply leave CC without any further harm. So for one thing, CCer's can criticize me on points that people in real life are unwilling to criticize me on. This is a good point and I should evaluate posts solely on the basis of content, not necessarily on trying to be very nice to the person. And sometimes being too open can be detrimental if I intermix my real life identity with that on the Internet in which case people who know my nasty side over the Internet interact with people in real life.</p>
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I haven't taken a look at your blog until today and I must say, that blog must've taken hours to create. You have to break out of this internet/gaming addiction, it's simply not good for you. Take some of freeadvice's free advice (heh, sounds funny), especially the third point I was always concerned about: early entrance. Although I do not agree at all with the SHARP thread bashing (bashing is no way to help others), I really do not think early entrance would be such a good idea unless there're other 11th graders there to support your social fabric. I'm pretty sure there are other people but I'm more concerned about the entire University environment all poured onto the mind of a student 2 years younger. I'm not saying you lack social skills, I'm saying this experience could be detrimental in the long run.
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<p>I'll be entering a formal program with 34 other students. And yes, I must question if I am really mature enough to enter such a program like this. What I do witness is that a lot of students mature at a very high rate in such a program. Being preoccupied with computer gaming is a serious concern but if I study in say, the bookstore or in an empty classroom, then I will be able to study without distractions. In fact, the opportunity to study in an empty classroom was a major factor in my deciding to enter the university early because there is no such opportunity at home, full of distractions. Before this though I really do have to break out of my Internet addiction. As for CC, my activity will definitely decrease when this year ends and when I can no longer relate to most people here. </p>
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CC can sometimes be that forum which makes people feel good by posting messages, such as the example of fae up there. Sometimes you feel good when you post your achievements and even your failures/rejections. Simfish, elaborating on your own failures is just no way to grow. It's like back in the 'Nam War when American soldiers were getting drafted: I knew a man who volunteered himself because he knew his time was coming. He met some other draftees who had college degrees. Yet, they complained about their situation because, "Oh damn the US government for taking two years of my life!" My point? Stay positive and see the better side of things. Even though justifying your failures on internet forums might make you feel good, it is infact, a harmful "feel good."
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<p>Yeah, feeling good when being rejected kinda makes me feel more complacent which is never a good thing.</p>
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1) Delete every game on your computer. Ideally, disconnect your internet or even throw your computer out of a window. It is your enemy.
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<p>I have no clue why I sometimes reinstall games after deleting them (for the nostalgia lol) but yes I really really need to seriously take your advice. Unfortunately however, I cannot disconnect my Internet in today's Internet-dependent society. :( Or the computer, for programming skills are extremely important. When I think about it, almost all of my problems could be eliminated if the Internet were eliminated. So I should focus almost my entire efforts on eliminating the Internet (where I can download games too) and then my life would be so much improved./</p>
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3) Take on an extreme sport or get acquainted with something else fun out in the sun. (Ok, maybe not extreme sports).
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<p>I really should jog again.</p>
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4) Make sure you never come back to CC or anything that's addicting your soul. Believe me, nothing happens on this website, or any other website you go to.
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<p>Yeah, forums are places for advice, places where I can witness how people as motivated as I am respond to opportunities, and places where I can see if I can apply to more summer programs. CC is good for the time that it's useful here though I get so connected with CC that I feel that I want to improve my image here when it really doesn't matter. And sometimes it's difficult to refrain from posting my opinions. Forums are not a good place if I get too attached to them and it is still definitely possible for me to succeed if I don't go to them. I suffered from a 4 year addiction to heavengames.com which was cured, ironically, by a collegeconfidential.com addiction.</p>
<p>Going to university next year would really help solve my CC.com addiction. CC.com is only for advice on academic guidance but very few posts are made on actual academic topics unlike physicsforums.com. Once with university, I can ask profs for advice whereas in HS, I could only ask advice from other CCers as no one in HS knows of opps as much as I do.</p>
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<p>This thread has been going off-topic for a while now - before this it was all on AP exams. So yeah the purpose is lost so any responses would be more appropriate directly at my <a href="mailto:simfish@gmail.com">simfish@gmail.com</a> account. I really appreciate the advice you all have given me though and should post it in my personal "quotes.doc" file</p>