Stupid Girl / Friend / High School Problem

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<p>Ok.....so I graduated from high school this year, headed off to college. I ended HS with a couple regrets, but overall, no biggies. I grew a lot my senior year in high school, and I'm a much different person than the more troubled person I was earlier. My friends and I drifted apart during this summer though, but I didn't mind, we're still on good terms and I understood why they had to do it. </p>

<p>But basically, as I'm headed off to college, I couldn't give a flying funk about "all the people I'm going to miss" /dramatic sarcasm. I liked high school enough, didn't LOVE it. I wish it wasn't this way, but I don't have any really close friends....I have people I'd meet / hang with over summer, but not a "lifelong" friends or who I could talk about deep stuff with. And I know I want to make good friends, better friends, and learn from my mistakes, and college's a great place for that. </p>

<p>But.....there's this one girl (sigh....), we'll be 100's of miles apart in autumn, but I really liked her. We know each other pretty well I mean we didn't go out (we were friends or a tad more than that you could say), but I spent a good amount of time with her. I was obsessed by her...like thinking about her almost every waking moment of the day, fantasizing and having day dreams (cute ones, ok?). I'd say I was "in love" with her. I know you don't use that word lightly, but really, everything she did - from the smallest things to her mannerisms, slight awkwardness were just...cute to me....and I took her for who she was, and always looked at what was positive about her, which is what I think love really is. </p>

<p>She knows that I like her, and in a couple ways, in more than one instance, I get the feeling she's using me. Not for $$, but just in other ways....like how girls like guys to chase after them kind of way, and she just likes the attention I give her. Because she's not THAT hot or special to most people, but she really is to me. But she's not interested in anything more than this screwed up friendship. And in the way she sometimes laughed when I use any self-deprecating humor, I feel that she might not be laughing at the humor, but really at me. And she's not this way with any of her other friends. </p>

<p>But I still like her. And I still fear missing her, and losing her in the next weeks, and I feel like I'll only miss her, and NOTHING else when I go off to college.....Whyyyyy?</p>

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<p>This is a repeating theme in high school films and books because it so well reflects reality. At this point, unsure about your social investments these past four years, you suddenly feel an urgency to address the only thing - or in this case, a girl - that meant anything. </p>

<p>You’re aware of some regrets and, in an attempt to take control of your life in a time that is otherwise uncertain, you hope to avoid another. So, call her and tell her how you feel. You seem not to expect her to reciprocate. Call her in an attempt to avoid creating another regret - not to demand a relationship.</p>

<p>Tell her that you’re leaving for college and that you’ll miss her company. She means a lot to you, you had a lot of fun being around her (even though you give no hint of that), and that you hope to meet for coffee or something when you return. </p>

<p>From there, let it happen.</p>