<p>okay let me just update your file then. to FULL indian. happy? that’s pretty awesome that your proud of your culture and stuff, i like people who feel a connection to their people, nation, culture, religion, yeah basically all those things you said. i see it as a positive. and indians i generally like. generally. when they STEAL the AP state scholar award i don’t, then i want to fight one. but when they’re not stealing our awards, my spot at college, my future profession that i can never even begin to aspire to because i know it’s going to be taken by an indian before i even get started down that road, then im cool with them. i’ll make them be my friends in class but only because i regard them as my greatest competition. so its really about more about keeping my enemies closest, but i can’t say i don’t like them. actually i really appreciate their company. i just know the minute i take my eyes off them they’ll jump ahead of me. i kind of keep them back, at my level, closer to where i am and try to sell them on this. like how my pace is actually the better pace even though its slower. and because im white, and they’re not exactly from america, they’ll typically go along with this. they might raise a suspicious eyebrow but if i ask them if its a suspicious eyebrow then that settles it and my authority is safe. </p>
<p>actually one of the things i get accused of by my friends is liking brown people because they’re brown, but they have this way wrong. they’ll literally tell me that when i like someone that <em>happens</em> to be brown, that, no, i like him or her because he or she is brown. but that’s <em>so</em> not what it’s about. it’s about keeping the enemies closer thing. you believe that right, you guys. right? right? they don’t believe it.</p>
<p>yeah that’s pretty interesting. when it gets all geographically ambiguous then you can be white and be anything. its that special region in europe or asia or is that northern africa? there’s really no clear boundaries. it’s the special region where the jews came from, the region where the scholarly class of indians first arose (i keep wanting to remember what they’re called but i forget, it’s the group with the preponderance of academics). im so not from there. my people get traced to like 200 miles north of there, to the barbarian savage tribes. you know, i don’t think i want to talk about this anymore. it hurts, it really hurts. but its all due to the internet that a descendent of barbarians, of savages, of village idiots, that a descendent of one of those, like me, can talk to you, a descendent of those special people. you know that thousands of years ago your people erected barriers, walls, to keep my people out, from trying to raid your people, steal your animals, and bring our disorder to you. but now because of the internet those barriers aren’t there anymore, its great, but also sad. because i see beyond those barriers to what im missing and what i am not, now.</p>