<p>Its value is so controversial, ranging from a mere tipping factor to an automatic admission/rejection. I, however, believe that it has the power of the latter, to pull me out of the thousands of faceless applicants and guarantee me an admission.</p>
<p>So why the !@$!%@ am I not working my butt off?? Why am I procrastinating and cruising around CC like I have all the time in the world?!!!</p>
<p>And even IF I finish my essays before the deadline date - I'm so paranoid that I won't send them in as soon as I'm done.</p>
<p>Either way, I'm clicking that grey Submit button 2 minutes before the deadline. I'm worried. What if, on Dec. 31, God decides to send an ice storm my way and cut off all the electricity? What if all the data in my computer suddenly gets wiped out? What if a virus eats up my word documents???</p>
<p>lol my deadline is the 1st but i'm going to send it in at least by the 31st.</p>
<p>but i totally agree with somethings you said- the essay is very important, yet why do people turn in their applications a month earlier than the deadline? why in the world would you do that if you could work on it and make it the bomb??? </p>
<p>How can I motivate myself to edit and type....
I've read both my essays over ... a million and twelve times for real...
I've memorized it. Not practically - but I've memorized it.</p>
<p>I can't think of anything new. I can't think anymore.
Yet I cannot give up.</p>
<p>I just can't get myself to submit anything before the deadline. I know I'm supposed to submit to Harvard ASAP to get an interview, but... for example, I just today got an idea for an essay that TOTALLY OBLITERATES my current one. And it may happen again by next week.</p>
<p>I have not started my essay, which is due in exactly a week. Or my personal statements for that matter. Woohoo
I am the queen of procrastination</p>
<p>This is the story of my life. I am ALWAYS so paranoid that my essays won't be good enough so for every school I've already sent it, I have sent it a day to two days before the deadline. I'm nervous, though, because it's break now and my most important deadlines are the 1st. I have no teachers to proofread and I am flipping.</p>
<p>Yeah!! The proofreading part is killing me!! It's like - I want some opinions, but then the opinions I get I don't really agree with... I'm so stubborn with my essays but I desperately want some feedback (that I'm not going to listen to) - and my teacher is probably never going to reply back to my email.</p>
<p>All of my posts seem useless, now that I think about it. I keep contradicting myself. </p>
<p>YES! I have found my niche on CC. I feel like I'm home.
I'm applying to 18 colleges, (luckily I got fee waivers for all), and when I started out on this mission I CLEARLY didn't know anything. MY parents and guidance counselor were all like, "Yeah, go for it"! But....now I'm gonna diieee</p>
<p>So my main essay is done except for ONE SENTENCE and its been at least four days since its been that way. Why can't I write a sentence. I am in purgatory.</p>
<p>i'm home :) y hasnt cc started a spl forum for er... not high achievers... procrastinators... blah blah... i'm applying to lik 13 colleges... i've over 12 essays left :D lik cafesimone said... i beg for proofreaders... n when they give their opinions.. i totally disagree sayin they ruin my individuality(what????).... n when i finish one short answer question... i turn to cc lik deadlines r months away... will i ever change???</p>
<p>I have six essays to write.
I have a list of twenty-nine ideas.
I have eleven paragraph-long freewrites that I started and then abandoned.
I have one draft that I wrote at 3 am on Christmas Day.
I read that draft today, and it's as coherent as if I wrote it in Klingon.
I have zero essays finished.</p>
<p>@kayabertz
haha I have a "Document 1" open right now on my laptop with a list of ideas that don't fit into any of my essays .... the most random ideas... like "grass" </p>
<p>whats killing me the most is Northwestern's "what unique qualities do you like about us" blah blah blah </p>
<p>you're the same as every other !@$!@% college.</p>
<p>and i just got beat down in another forum for saying this but i agree!
why (whatever school that asks this bad question)? wth idk!! heres why:
i significantly underachieved academically throughout my high school years so even though im applying to the schools i really want to go to, i will not be getting in so you are my realistic choice that i have more confidence into getting into. so basically why? because your easier and safer! and to you i am not an underachiever.
somehow i feel that is not what they want to hear.....</p>
<p>I have nine half written essays
I have no clue what I'm doing
I have a drunk sister bothering me
I want to kill her
My mom took away my iPhone
I am procrastinating</p>