It’s been a super long time since I’ve visited CC! And chatter here is just as manic as it was when I first visited as an aspiring Trojan two years ago!
Even though that feels like SUCH A long time ago. And although I’m approaching my last year at SC, - added a minor and progressive degree - I’m still pretty traumatized by my experience waiting for an acceptance or rejection.
It sucks. I know.
It’s scary, it’s nerve racking, and, in my case, isolating since I had to go through the process completely blind to the nuances of applying to a university as a first gen student. One who also did not come from a wealthy background.
Naively, I applied to four schools and was confident I’d at least make it into one
I was on CC every single day, trudging through threads and posts about people getting their acceptances and repeatedly telling myself that maybe I just wasn’t good enough to go anywhere.
Regular self criticisms included, but were not limited to:
- my essays were stupid; I was really honest and really passionate, why was I so honest?? Should I have been more professional???
- I wasn’t a member of any clubs in community college; should I have just quit working and been immersed in college life??
- my work history had nothing to do with my degree goals? Should I have lied about my passions and went into a program I didn’t like just to get in???
- how the hell am I gonna pay for school??? My parents aren’t co-signing on any loans, and I can’t ask my friends.
Then the first shoe dropped.
I got rejected by UCLA and waitlisted by two other UCs.
I was 100% CONVINCED that there was no way in hell I was getting into USC.
It was a really terrifying experience.
And then it happened
I got in.
And not only did I get in, I got a merit scholarship that combined with uni grants covered almost all of my tuition.
This is a super short synopsis of my full experience.
BUT,
I thought this would be a great space for me and others who shared similar feelings of hopelessness can hopefully inspire others like us not to give up.
Fight on, bb!