<p>Ok...so I have three major problems here. </p>
<p>1.) I keep losing things!
So far this year I've lost a school computer charger, two books, my school uniform (YES), my gym uniform, my adidas bag, my school sweater, my key club pin and almost lost my lunchbox. I just borrowed the charger from the IT last week and asked: "Could I just give this back to you tomorrow?" and forgot to give it back to her and I PUT IT IN MY BACKPACK but it disappeared!??? I swear that my backpack is like a black hole! I didn't touch the charger after putting it in my backpack! What the hell! </p>
<p>But for some reason I can remember deadlines and dates so well and I have never missed one homework grade or project in ANY class. </p>
<p>2.) I can't figure out how to hold my books.
I know. This just looks ridiculous. But you guys should see me! I walk around school with literally 6 textbooks in my hands barely making it across the hallway with a huge backpack filled with stuff...but the thing is, I need all of the books that I'm carrying! However, I don't see ANYONE carrying as much stuff as I do. Most people have one, if any books in their hands. But me? Forget it. I can barely walk straight with all the stuff I'm carrying. Yes, I do put everything in my locker and only take the books that I need. No matter how I try to work it, it's still ridiculously heavy and I get severe neckaches carrying so much stuff! </p>
<p>3.) I think I have paranoia. Not even kidding.
I can't help the way that I've been thinking lately. I mean yeah, I've always been a little on the neurotic side, but now it's just getting out of hand. I think that everyone's thinking bad thoughts of me all the time and no matter how I try to bring myself to reality, it won't work. If I say ONE wrong thing that my mind involuntarily catches, I can't stop thinking about how stupid it was, even though I know that the person whom I said that to probably doesn't even remember what I said. I take every word that I say and every move that I make down to an exact science; only to make me increasingly neurotic and paranoid as the days go on. However, I find that my subconscious mind acknowledges the fact that these fears and anxiety producing experiences are strangers to the waking minds of the people surrounding me. But this makes no difference. I am extremely obsessive over my grades and getting into the college of my dreams and I often get lost in my own thoughts and my own mind throughout the day. I don't really have any friends due to my neurotic and socially contrived disposition; which is both a blessing and a curse. </p>
<p>Am I crazy? Please help. What would you do? And about the charger? I don't know what to say to the IT. I can't find it anywhere.</p>
<p>Thanks. :)</p>
That’s how I am now. I have like, one friend. I am extremely introverted, and now matter how many times I try, I can never change. I’ve been to a number of different schools with hopes of a social change; but each time it happens, I always fail. I just don’t know what to talk about with people. I avoid people because I hate the silence. For example, I’ll be walking down the hallway and I’ll see someone that I know, but I won’t wait for them. It’s not because I don’t want to talk, it’s just that I don’t know what to talk about. If I do wait for them, I’ll be like “Hi!” and you know, I’m friendly and everything, but unless it’s pertinent to the way the day is going (“man, this day is really slow, isn’t it?”) and I’ll get a “…yeah.” You know what I mean? I get tongue twisted, and I cannot think of anything to say that won’t sound scripted. While this is going on, I am under a lot of anxiety and I despise it; so I just avoid the situation all together. So that’s my social situation, lol. I know; it’s bad 
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