Would you think that I am a freak?

Pre-College Issues High School Life
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<p>My life has been going horribly ever since I went deaf in my sophomore year of hs (i'm a jun10r now). Frosh year, I guess I was 'sort of' popular...girls asking me out, a lot of friends..(i'm not bragging..i guess its the only thing that brings up my self esteem...)</p>

<p>I still have friends, but a lot of people have dumped me because they think I'm stupid. A few people know, but I don't talk to them anymore. Most of the population doesn't have a clue (since i talk normal and can hear almost as well as a normal person), but when I say "what" or "i dont know"...they probably think I'm stupid or something.</p>

<p>Anyway, the above is not the problem...I guess I just have to deal with it...</p>

<p>I have an implant (just got it like sophomore year), and I grew my hair out really long in order to cover it (my hair looks like crap and a lot of people have made fun of it) Yesterday, though, my mom told me that I was going to get a haircut, which I wanted one actually since it's getting really hot and my hair is a nuisance. I didn't shave it off, which is the norm for boys my age...there is stil hair covering my ears but now, of course with just my luck, it is not covering it since my stupid implant is ginormous gah....</p>

<p>Tomorrow, I have school and also, it is one of the hottest days..like 90 degrees, or something. If I can't cover it tomorow, people are going to look at me weird and never talk to me again..or I can wear a beanie, but then, since it is soo hot, my head is most likely to heat up...</p>

<p>I am screwed both ways...I might as well wear the beanie since I would not be able to handle "hey deaf boy, or freak or w/e names high school people use" </p>

<p>And also, last week was my prom...guess who didn't go? yea, thats right. I mean, who would want to go with me on a date anyway...since I wouldn't be able to hear a single word in the place because of hte music....sometimes, I feel that I never have any fun and everyone else is out enjoying theirself...all I do is sit at home and study and still get ok grades at that, while other people go outside and do other crap and get the same grades as me.</p>

<p>What is wrong with my life......</p>

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<p>If people would make fun of you for a disability over which you have absolutely no control, they are terrible people, and you should want nothing to do with them anyway. Go without a hat, and hold your head up. Being hearing impaired is in no way a reflection of your personality.</p>

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<p>I’m sorry…but I don’t have the strength for that…I wouldn’t be able to take it and would probably break down within 2 minutes in 1st period</p>

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<p>Sorry all if I am using this forum to rant about my life</p>

<p>I know it is not appropriate, but I feel that I have nowhere else to go, except for my parents of course…</p>

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<p>You have every right to rant, since our world is so shallow. Even in my school, which is the epitome of rich, stubborn, shallow people, nobody would dare make fun of someone who was wearing a hearing aid. In fact, the one kid I know who does have one is quite popular, and one of the nicest kids I know.</p>

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<p>they’ll find out sometime, get it over with now and they’ll have more time to get used to it.</p>

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<p>Have you ever thought of counceling? It might not be the most horrible thing. It would allow you to rant and help you work with your confidence issues. You’re implant really isn’t anything to be ashamed of. If people make fun of that the should make fun of the kids with glasses, with a crutch because s/he broke his/her leg, or the kid with braces. People are jerks. You’re fine. You just need to learn to deal.</p>

<p>It’s alright to rant though. I do it all the time, and I’m not deaf by any means. :D</p>

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<p>Alright thanks guys. I plan on cutting my hair to look like Edward Cullen (lol i like his hair and I can do it since my hair is thick and nice, i think) and tell everyone in college…</p>

<p>but in high school, i guess i will just have to deal with it for another year since people are jerks, like you guys said. Maybe they won’t insult me to my face, but I know for sure that they will talk crap about me behind my back…like some of them do now…</p>

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<p>so do you guys think i should wear a hat tomorrow? or just hold my head up high?</p>

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<p>how
many
threads
have
u
made
on
this
same
topic
…?</p>

<p>you’re not going to get any new responses. let’s move on.</p>

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<p>DON’T cover it up.</p>

<p>Who cares if people make fun of you? People say stuff about me all the time, but I really could care less.</p>

<p>Be confident. Hold your head up high.</p>

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<p>If you can, I wouldn’t wear a hat. Hold your head up high and act like there’s no problem. Other students will only see a problem and make a big deal out of it if that is how you choose to address it.</p>

<p>And smarteeangel101, you have nothing meaningful to contribute whatsoever. Please post only if you do. This is a sensitive topic and the OP had the hope of opening up to what he/she thought were respectful and mature people on CC.</p>

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<p>runningwriter, i’m fairly sure i’ve contributed heavily to one of the numerous other threads he’s started in hopes of people telling him what to do to solve his problems. since u were obviously not aware, i suggest u check his thread history. there is no point for ‘pie’ to basically copy & paste his auto-biography on new threads looking for unique advice, as, at this point, no one can offer any unique advice to him [such as yourself].
have a fabulous evening.</p>

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<p>Even if you have contributed already in previous threads, you could have just ignored this one. There is no need for negativity.</p>

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<p>Rawr. Fiesty.</p>

<p>Personally, it’s a little disheartening that you, OP, are so concerned with looking stupid in front of these people. You cannot help your condition. You did not make yourself in need of a hearing aid. </p>

<p>They have no business at all judging you over something you cannot control. Shame on them.</p>

<p>You have two choices, my friend: decide to let your condition embarrass you or accept that those who matter won’t judge you on such a trivial aspect of your being.</p>

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<p>Alrite, I admit I have posted a similar topic before. But that was like a month ago. I usually don’t feel like this most of the time…just one some days, so I feel the need to rant.</p>

<p>Like runningwriter said, you don’t need to post smartangel…and I’m sorry I offended you. I realize that I should take my problems elsewhere instead of offending people. I apologize.</p>

<p>On the other hand, to people who were not actually insulted by my ramblings, I appreciate your advice. But high school is a sensitive issue…people are immautre. I have ultimately decided to open up in college because by then, nobody will care since they are concerned with making something of themselves.</p>

<p>Once again, I grealy thank all of you who have helped me and I am sorry if I offended you smarteangel.</p>

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<p>Why on Earth do you think people will make fun of you for being deaf. Is your outlook on life so cynical that you think all people are heartless pricks?</p>

<p>Trust me. No one in their right mind would make fun of a person for being disabled. People look at you funny right now because they don’t know you’re deaf, and thus can’t explain why you would avoid seemingly simple questions.</p>

<p>Let people know.</p>

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<p>Okay, good point aeroenginner. People are starting to get the idea, but eh, I guess its time to get it out in the open.</p>

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<p>Um, smarteangel, I think you are confusing me to be someone else. I have only posted this twice (this is the 2nd time). And you have never answered any of em except for now…</p>

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<p>Hey, I am so glad I say your post. I have a younger brother who feels exactly like you. I wish you guys could converse sometime. If so please email me at <a href="mailto:stephaniebailey87■■■■■■.com">stephaniebailey87■■■■■■.com</a></p>