<p>I was reading a book this morning, and came to the same old habit once again: while in a empty, quiet room, i was reading my book only to find myself thinking of something else -- but just for several seconds. I would then continue reading, but the same old thing would happen about every 3-5 pages. I don't know if it's because of the dry appeal of the book itself, or my own inability to completely focus. </p>
<p>I don't have many problems with academics, but in some ways I am flawed. Especially @ reading comprehension. I scored a 520 on the Verbal section of the SAT my first time, but 700+ on the Math and Writing sections (I find myself to be visually and spatially adept). When it comes to the reading sections, I tell myself a-million-times over that I would stop drifting from the passages and just COMPLETELY FOCUS. And then the more I would think of it the more I would begin to "unfocus." And the funny thing is I would notice myself doing it and would try to stop it once again. I also like to play with my hands a lot when i read, like attempting to "crack" my knuckles throughout my whole reading.</p>
<p>Also, I recall in Government class listening to my teacher lecture. It was the only class that I had any teacher lecture all day. he didn't have notes or anything -- he just lectured. As the semester began to pass, I would notice that I couldn't keep myself to understand every single thing he said. I mean, everyone in my class thought of me as the "smart" one due to my test scores of years prior, but in that class he actually asked questions to random people in the middle of his lectures. When he would call on me I would just blank out, and not know the question, even though the only thing I DO in class is pay attention (i have to remind myself occasionally). He would then proceed to call me an "airhead" (he was joking, i guess) for the rest of the year. He's a loud teacher, and he's caught me somehow "not paying attention" even though it is in my sole truthful interest to learn and understand. like, i would open my eyes (i'm serious=]) and look at him just to keep him quiet, but i wouldn't actually be comprehending what he would be saying. more likely, i was thinking about my eyes actually being wide open and looking at him and the fact that i wasn't getting what he was saying.</p>
<p>i like to look at my driving, too. i don't have my license yet, but i have my permit and have been practicing driving with my parents recently. i don't know why, but i feel really "slow" when i drive. i'll begin to lose alertness -- sort of driving like i don't care. i like to say that i like to relax, and hate the quick thinking required for driving safely. i begin to miss a lot of things, like stop signs. </p>
<p>lastly, one younger brother was diagnosed with ADHD. is AD/HD genetically linked? i also have a brother only one year younger than me who seems actually more hyper than the one with ADHD. he's constantly screaming around the house and jumps (age 16) and has been sent to a community school for lacking academics. he hasn't been checked for AD/HD.</p>
<p>so my point is: is there any possibility that i may have ADD? i'm not the hyper one i used to be as a kid, i'm more restrained now. but honestly, i hope i have add (not adhd, i'm not "hyper"), because in real life i am AN AIRHEAD#@!#$!@ i always forget where i put things. otherwise, i'm just the smart-slow kid bound for nowhere.</p>