I don’t really know where to begin… Last year was my first year of college. I attended a school 2 and half hours away from home and knew nobody when I went there. I had a really hard first year. I was really homesick. I cried almost everyday, sometimes about nothing. I got good grades and did well, but I would go to class, go back to my dorm, study, eat, and sleep. I joined a sorority thinking that would help, but I hated it. No one included me and the events we had to attend felt like a waste of time, and I didn’t want to be at them. I had good roommates, and I got along with all of them well, but none of them became my best friend like you see always happens. My best friend from high school went to another university and I talked to her often but didn’t get to see very much. My boyfriend lived a little over an hour away and if I wasn’t going home I was with him on the weekends. I ended up transferring to the school they both attend thinking having friends there would help, and I live with my best friend. But I am just not happy. I still miss home a lot and talk to my mom everyday. I haven’t made any friends and my roommate is always with friends that she made last year and I feel like she has moved on and found a new best friend. I end up spending most of my time with my boyfriend and not at my house because I feel out of place when my friends friends are there. I just feel out of place and I am not great at making new friends. I guess I am just tired of feeling lonely and don’t want to feel like this anymore, but I don’t know what to do. Sorry for the length, I just don’t know what I should do.
Can you go to the student health center and ask to speak to a counselor? That person can help you figure out what’s going on, and if you should see a doctor. My daughter goes to a counselor every week at her school. This is too heavy a load for you to carry by yourself.