I don’t really know where to begin… Last year was my first year of college. I attended a school 2 and half hours away from home and knew nobody when I went there. I had a really hard first year. I was really homesick. I cried almost everyday, sometimes about nothing. I got good grades and did well, but I would go to class, go back to my dorm, study, eat, and sleep. I joined a sorority thinking that would help, but I hated it. No one included me and the events we had to attend felt like a waste of time, and I didn’t want to be at them. I had good roommates, and I got along with all of them well, but none of them became my best friend like you see always happens. My best friend from high school went to another university and I talked to her often but didn’t get to see very much. My boyfriend lived a little over an hour away and if I wasn’t going home I was with him on the weekends. I ended up transferring to the school they both attend thinking having friends there would help, and I live with my best friend. But I am just not happy. I still miss home a lot and talk to my mom everyday. I haven’t made any friends and my roommate is always with friends that she made last year and I feel like she has moved on and found a new best friend. I end up spending most of my time with my boyfriend and not at my house because I feel out of place when my friends friends are there. I just feel out of place and I am not great at making new friends. I guess I am just tired of feeling lonely and don’t want to feel like this anymore, but I don’t know what to do. Sorry for the length, I just don’t know what I should do.
MaineLonghorn gave you good advice on your other post – go talk to the counseling center. They’re trained to help you and see stuff like this all the time.
Sounds like you are stuck on YOU. How YOU feel, what YOU want to do, YOU YOU YOU. How about thinking about somebody else for a little while? Volunteer for something - the local animal shelter, anything to get you out of yourself. Also, the past is past and things will NEVER be the same again. People make more friends and move on. Don’t believe it? Go ahead, move back home and see how everything has changed and your friends either aren’t there anymore or are into different things. You need to move on, too.
It’s not the place, it is how you think about it and the rest of your life. Work with a counselor. You have to start focusing on the positives. And remember, your primary reason for going to college/university is to get an education.
There are some aspects of your post that make me wonder on whether or not this is simple homesickness. Crying a lot, for no reason, inability to feel joy, sleeping a lot, etc. Makes me wonder if something else is going on. I agree with others that its time to seek professional help.