<p>Alright, I browsed through the forum categories a few times and I failed to find the best-fitting option, so I hope no one minds that I made this here. Anyways:</p>
<p>So my situation is that I have a GPA of 2.65 in a 6-year PharmD my 1st Semester and <1.0 the 2nd. Yeah, I basically lost hope gave up when I still had a chance. I could go on academic probation the following year, but I chose not to because the idea of me becoming a pharmacist, as I learned that year, is not appealing the slightest. I've always wanted to be an engineer, so I will try to pursue that, but as you can tell, I really gave up at life. I understood that I needed to at least maintain the GPA to at least transfer easier. </p>
<p>My problem is that even if I take the best course of action (which is to go to Community to bring my GPA up as well as get a job--I've never had a job, so I don't quite understand the value and hardship of money), I don't think I'd actually do any better. Oh, to add on, I've read a fantastic book called Nickel</a> and Dimed which is about how people can't live without a good job, but still, I'm having trouble coming to gripes with reality. I really wish that it just clicked in! It's not like I'm denying it (Well, I don't think I am)</p>
<p>I really hate myself for wasting my parents money. I understood that the whole time, yet I couldn't do it. To be honest, I've "never" tried at anything 100% before; the SATs (an unenthusiastic 1920), studying (never studied before either), et cetera. I'm not even putting too much thought in typing this out even when I hope I get helpful responses. </p>
<p>I am under the impression I should at least see a psychologist because my mode of thinking is still very immature, but I doubt that'd help much as I'm still just 18. Though, I think that notion of mine is just an excuse to shift blame from myself, but I also think that counter notion is stemming from my fear of visit a psychologist and denial that I need to see one. Therefore, I am at an impasse here. </p>
<p>I could type more, but it would be borderline a rant of qwasi-helpful information.<br>
So... what exactly are my chances? And what is the best course of action? I just really want to fix my life before it's completely broken! </p>
<p>Oh, if I missed any information vital to an accurate response, request and you shall receive.</p>