Depression, Alcohol, Drugs, Failing, HELP!!!!!

<p>Quasi update…two steps forward… three steps back… one step side ways… and a backflip would explain how it’s going now.</p>

<p>Too much to cover really she is still on her own. We still pay her insurance, cell phone, and are still the go to for emergencies. </p>

<p>The older guy she was living with who isn’t a boyfriend recently kicked her out for not working, lieing to his face, etc. The general synopsis of this is: Her 28yr old bf said “let’s take a break” she didn’t take that well. The day before her and I talked about her dating older guys that she meets in AA and her exact quote was “Well, you can tell me I told you so if it doesn’t work out. I know that ##### cares for me…so much Dad” I said “I would never throw it in your face…just realize besides the addiction there isn’t much you guys have in common…etc etc etc”</p>

<p>After he told her that “he wanted to take a break” they started to argue and she started saying “I want to die…I hate my life…I want to kill myself”, so he called 911 and the again she went to the ER, Psych eval, and off to another acute rehab for 8 days. She never did try to kill herself, but she did say it and that’s enough.</p>

<p>Her roomate smoothed things over with the employer so she could keep her job very nice of him. He pays 70% of the rent too another very nice thing of him to do. Another family meeting, but the wife and I feel like professionals at this point and it was like watching a rerun on tv.</p>

<p>The therapist would say “She is making so much progress, really opening up, sharing her feelings, being real”…“She understands she can’t keep all of these thoughts inside etc etc” We’ve heard all of this before she always has talked a good game…we were supportive spent many hours talking about her plan when she exited. It was just wait and see if she would execute or would it be just talk?</p>

<p>The plan was to go back to work, continue AA, and again restart IOP, to go back to her psychologist and therapist and that we were going to pay for everything. Instead ot went like this…</p>

<p>She walked out of the psychologist office, missed her therapist appt… we get charged anyway not the copay, but a $125 no show fee since they can’t bill insurance. She missed her first 4 shifts of work and was terminated. Her excuse was “She thought they knew she had a episode and were going to work with her” her boss actually called the roommate and told him that she was terminated. When he confronted her she lied and said “No I’m not… I have work tonight”. Her and her BF got back together too and they have been like highschoolers…just inseperable.</p>

<p>We had a meeting/big talk over chips and dip… again daughter, roommate, wife, myself, boyfriend to try to wrap our arms around all of this yet again. Remember the roommate leads many AA meetings, he works in mental health, so he is a great role model. At this point he was disgusted though truly disgusted!! He brought up the lieing, not being responsible with money, her focus on needing affirmation from guys and just being smothering, one of his quotes was “That’s all you do is talk on the phone or go hang out with a ####! You don’t look for a better job or a 2nd job and I feel like you are taking advangtage of me right now. I hate to say that, but you actions speak for themselves”…“No offense to you (boyfriends name) but you are not focusing on your recovery…(daughers name) needs to focus on her recovery and you both know how I feel about you guys starting a relationship in the state you are in …etc etc etc”</p>

<p>Once he said that we just should have ended it the defensive excuse driven daughter came out in full force…“You guys don’t know what it’s like being me thinking what I think” … “You think you know and even you think so (roommates name) but you don’t…none of ya’ll do so until you walk in my shoes I don’t want to hear it” …“I put in 2 more job applications last week that’s something right?”…“I couldn’t go back to work there I just couldn’t…you guys aren’t me so it’s hard to explain it I just couldn’t though…”</p>

<p>The BF was quiet and he has fallen off the the sobriety bandwagon frequently not a good role model…all he said was that “Mr.#### your daughter helps me be happy and I’m trying to turn my life around.” I can’t fault the guy for that…on principle they shouldn’t be together though at least imo. She has gotten drunk a few times too and that was brought up…each time with the boyfriend more talking went on. It ended with she was going to spend the next two days job hunting and her roommate was going to help her.</p>

<p>The next day she said she “was going to her BF’s house for a bit and would be back to develop a plan of attack.” At the end of the day her roommate called asking if I’d seen her telling me what she said…I said nope we haven’t.</p>

<p>Turns out she went to Fort Walton and ended up coming back 5 days later with nary a phone call…that was the last straw for the roommate. He had her stuff waiting for her and was kicking her out.</p>

<p>Where is she now? Supposedly living with friends…we aren’t 100% sure. Since this happened she knows she burned a very good bridge. If she continues down this path of hurting those that care who knows. We haven’t talked to her in two weeks…we’ll see.</p>

<p>Have a good summer!!</p>

<p>Sounds like things have been tough.
She was fired from her job & kicked out of her apt, so how is she supporting herself?
It sounds like she isn’t seeing the therapist- she has a psychologist * and* a therapist?
I can’t remember, has she been evaluated by a medical dr/psychiatrist?</p>

<p>Wow! Sorry things have not significantly improved. Sometimes they have to hit rock bottom before they get better–painful but unfortunately true in some cases. Best of luck! Sounds like the former room mate was a really kind soul who was really trying to help her–maybe she wasn’t ready for the help. So sad!</p>

<p>I am so sorry. Just heartbreaking.</p>

<p>Emeraldkity4…can I count the times!!!</p>

<p>4 Different psychologists all start her on medication then a evaluation two weeks later to up the dose. So far it’s always ended up the same…“It’s really helping I feel less anxious a little queasy though, but good”…then it becomes “I don’t need to take this stuff I’m fine I’m tired of taking drugs” after two-three weeks.</p>

<p>That goes for any drug she won’t get on birth control skipped that appt. too has been diagnosed with “mild or moderate depression” depending which Psych we’re talking about and “mild moderate anxiety” we have brought up bi-polar…they say that’s not it.</p>

<p>As far as cash? I have no clue she was going to pawn her Itouch for 25$ I gave her $125 for it and gave it to one of the kids and $40 for gas this was two weeks ago. We don’t spend alot of time trying to contact her though.</p>

<p>A message on FB every couple of days, a post on her wall, a txt here or there…she’s doing her own thing. Her ex roommate hasn’t seen her lately either.</p>

<p>Have a great summer!! All the other kids are in various different summer camps going on a trip in July …excited!</p>

<p>I’m really sorry things are still muddled for your daughter. I’m saying a prayer for her and for you.</p>

<p>Almost a year has gone by and things do come full circle. She is doing well it’s hard to believe she is the same girl/woman who I saw in rehab a year ago. As I reread the thread I can’t believe she is the same girl who did all of these things either. As shocked as I was she took this path is almost how shocked I am she has both feet out of it now.</p>

<p>The summer was so busy and this school year is flying by as well all the kids are in something so so busy. I can’t believe it’s been almost 5 months since I posted anything.</p>

<p>Back to the oldest she is doing well. She lucked out and got a good job 3 months ago about 30k/yr, we still pay some bills for her, she has lots of spending money and is saving 500/mo. Slowly this help is being weened off…except medical of course. Her goal is to be completely self sufficient by the end of 2011.</p>

<p>She has been clean for 5 months, is cutting back on smoking, and has been dating a guy for 4 months who seems decent also a recovering addict. I can’t say much about that he does seem nice much better than the others. He has been clead for 700 days ish. She really has matured alot it’s encouraging.</p>

<p>She hasn’t been to a Psych. for 3-4 months and wonders if it was just all in her head as she was trying to find her path falling and tripping along the way. She can’t believe she said some of the things she did… I guess we’ll see longterm.</p>

<p>Can’t say things are a ton better between us the feelings just aren’t there. Remembering how indifferent/mad I felt 6-10 months ago I would say we are better and the feeling are very slowly coming back. We do chat here and there, little txt messages, and the occassional dinner which is good and needs to continue.</p>

<p>All in all she is a adult living her life, working, and being fairly responsible. I don’t know if I’ll ever wrap my arms around her needing AA or not being able to hang out with non addicts. We never talk about that she just says it helps her and I have to believe that she needs it. </p>

<p>Time does heal we just need to keep heading in the right direction. Thanks again hope everyone else’s family is doing well.</p>

<p>Wow your update is music to my ears. I am glad to see things have improved.</p>

<p>Its good to hear from you Scared dad. It sounds like things have been going in a good direction for all of you. I just reread this thread and hearing myself then I would like to apologize for sounding judgemental. I understand “the feelings just aren’t there.” Hopefully in time that will improve too as your daughter makes better decisions and lifestyle choices.</p>

<p>Your family has come so far in just a few months. Continue to be thankful for the progress that has been made, and trust your D to do what she needs to do. Having had a family member who walked in your D’s shoes, I know that it is hard to trust her … but you have no choice, as this is all up to her now. Treasure the relationship in whatever way you can. Hopefully, time will bring more positive progress. Any step in a positive direction is great news.</p>