<p>I turned down UC Irvine, UC Davis, and UC Riverside to go to Cal Poly San Luis Obispo. Now, I’m starting to regret my decision.
Some background information about me: I am a half asian half white female. I am a very liberal atheist and grew up in the so cal heat. I love big city life, and I’m not very social. (Everyone that doesn’t know me regards me as the “quiet, beautiful asian girl”.) Though I’m quiet, I love to have a good time. I’m attracted to the crazy, party lifestyle with a balance of hardwork. In college, I wanted to blossom with other liberal minded people that share my interest in big cities, scanty clothing, intellectual thinking, partying, rap and indie, fashion.
I visited Cal Poly after accepting admission there, and I felt really misplaced. The city was small. It seemed very redneck(my pet peeve). The mass amounts of white people made me feel out of place and unattractive(though pretty where I live, maybe the guys here only like white girls?) I heard that a vast majority of students were republican and very conservative uptights(another pet peeve of mine). In San Luis Obispo, my insecurities started to really bloom. I felt judged and out of place. They say the weather is lovely, but I visited recently and if the summertime makes me shiver, I’m scared as to think how I will react to the winter. Also, I dislike country music and anything to do with it with a passion. (I love rap, alternative, indie, oldies, classical, jazz)
Overall, I just really didn’t enjoy the vibe of the college, people, and town. However, this may be my insecurities and rumored thoughts getting the best of me.</p>
<p>I guess I’m looking for reassurance. That the college is not as socially dead as it looks. That I can have a good time even with my pet peeves. That maybe one of you went through the same insecurities?</p>