<p>this is whats happening.</p>
<p>I get in these really really really sad moods a couple times a week. ok actually more like 4/5 days. Like I don't even want to talk to anyone and I just want to get away from everyone. I just want to be by myself and conversation just feels really pointless and everything seems pointless and it's like I just want to like flop down and stare into space and I want to cry for no reason. I know it sounds weird. Most of the time i can handle it but sometimes it gets too much.</p>
<p>Ok as a result of these mood problems I kind of hate talking to my best friend. Like she'll be all happy at the end of school and want to tell me about her day, and I'm like zoned out and I don't laugh in response or anything or if I say something it'll be like 'why didn't you just tell them to f off'. and then after a few minutes being around her im about to go crazy and i seriously have to leave or else I'm going to say something hurtful to her. so i just go home and like leave her. </p>
<p>I feel really bad about how I just leave her or I'm unresponsive when I talk to her but I really can't help it. I usually am able to make myself laugh/smile/joke when I'm around her but when it gets really bad then I can't force myself to pretend i'm happy anymore and that's when i have to leave or else i'm probably going to either scream or cry or punch someone because im so sick of everything.</p>
<p>So is there any way I can handle this problem without hurting her feelings? truthfully though I don't think she really cares when I'm sad but I still don't want her to worry about me that's why I dont want to tell her my feelings. but then if she's my best friend what kind of friendship is that? well yeah i guess that's why i feel so lonely all the time. </p>
<p>so like what would you do if you were me.</p>