@muu2000 haha I’m just as speechless as you dude. if I’m not anxious in the first place, I shouldn’t have explained myself. i would have just asked “should I retake SATS or TOEFL?” right, right, right?
Don’t call strangers babe. That is wildly inappropriate. SMH. You really need to stop taking your cues from TV shows. Done with this thread now.
@Lindagaf sorry, bad habit.
lol
can this thread be deleted or something? 
I’m back to give my two cents. I agree with @Lindagaf mostly. We are only going off the information that you have provided. We can only make assumptions based on that! And, you really need to fix your attitude and how you come off to people. It’s irking. You are asking for advice and we are trying to help you.
And no one is pinning you down for not showing you art. From what we know, it seems like you are not super clear about your direction. AND ART is a hard path. It’s not entirely stable and it is a difficult way to go
I’m sorry to hear that you are paying for your own tests and preparation, but does that mean that your parents are also unwilling to pay for college? If so, then I understand why you are fixated on the scholarship from John Cabot. I’m not going to check the website, but did they explicitly state that they offer the scholarship to all international students who get a certain score? Or are you assuming that you will qualify for the scholarship?
And although, they are your circumstances-traveling and having to work- if you are really driven to improve and learn, then you will put the effort in and do all that you can to improve. You have to build your foundation before you move onto harder topics. That’s how we all learn. You need to do that.
Also, please improve how you type/converse in English. Calling someone “babe” can be quite disrespectful and it’s not a very endearing term. It also can be condescending. I know you aren’t a native speaker, but learn this. Try to read and watch news as suggested. You are sounding very anxious and over the edge. You also sound disrespectful and quick to think irrationally. Take a moment to breathe. Calm down. Logically think it through.
not really, it’s basically stuck with your life “forever”.
Woops. Looks like my internet didn’t update. I didn’t see the replies before posting.
@MuffinLord1 deep breath yeah okay. I think I’ve been putting sentences into the wrong way? and noted about the babe. I will come back if I ace my toefl and gotten an acceptance into John Cabot. If I don’t, I can say good bye to college, just pursue with my career, I guess.