<p>Good luck TA! Pmvd, I know you are angry at peter parker for some reason, but you don’t need to bring down TA. This is pretty insulting:</p>
<p>“They are going to tell her that they are busy, or that they have plans, etc. The few times that they will go out with her (I’m being optimistic here) it will be solely out of pity.”</p>
<p>Why would you say this to someone in TA’s postion?</p>
<p>“TA needs to take into account the amount of emotional damage she would suffer if she takes a risk and fails. In my opinion, a life of trauma is not something people should gamble with.”</p>
<p>Obviously something struck a cord with you, but lets try to stay positive.</p>
<p>I printed out this thread to my psychologist. I misunderstood what he said. He meant that just going to college is average for my age, not that it was an accomplishment. Basically, that I am doing enough with my life compared to others my age.
I do want to change, but I’m afraid that pmvd has a point. I still make plenty of flaws while interacting and it’s obvious that I’m different. Even my peers try to correct me. Thank goodness they’re all kind to me. What if everyone is just nice to me out of pity or some ulterior motive? </p>
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<p>Thank goodness I’m a good listener. I can listen to people blabber on for hours and reciprocate half-way decently. It’s the talking that’s the issue with me. I have few interests outside of reading. That becomes really apparent quickly as people get to know me. It kind of irks me when people say, “What else?” because there is pretty much nothing else unless you count random facts I can’t remember instantly unless a relevant situation arises.</p>
<p>TA, I apologize if I brought you down with my last post. I said that people will go out with you out of pity, but at the same time I realize that it is impossible for me to know for sure if that will be the case.</p>
<p>Just for the record, I didn’t mean to say that you are unworthy of sincere friendship, I simply made a comment about the way neurotypicals, in my opinion, perceive and treat us. My reasoning, flawed as it is, went like this: I am similar to TA in many ways, we have similar problems, the few times people have tried to be nice to me it was, in my opinion, out of pity, therefore if someone tries to be nice to TA it’s probably also going to be out of pity.</p>
<p>I hope you didn’t take my comments the wrong way.</p>
<p>I’ve read some of your other threads, and I just felt like I had to comment. You say that you’re stupid and dumb, but anyone on CC would agree that you have a flair for writing–you mentioned you joined the school paper…have you thought about majoring in journalism?</p>
<p>I must say: anyone who writes like you is NOT average, stupid or dumb, no matter what an IQ or SAT score says. </p>
<p>What SUNY do you attend, and what is your major?</p>
<p>And your sister may attend Fordham with no medical issues, but I doubt she has your writing talent. I’d venture to say that you’re just as intelligent as her, but you and others may not realize it yet.</p>
<p>Thank you for your comments blairb91. I am currently a liberal arts major, but I am thinking of transferring into psychology or communication. I would pick any major where I can do plenty of writing because that is what I enjoy. I do attend a SUNY school, but that’s all I’m saying lol! Again, I appreciate your words.</p>
<p>TA, if you don’t feel that your therapist is helping you, it may be time to find a new one. Maybe, seriously, you may need some medication, I’m no doctor, but you sound depressed to me, and there are medications to help you while you continue psychotherapy. And, I don’t know if this helps, but I think most people your age have the same doubts and concerns that you do, but most people aren’t able to verbalize them as well as you do. From the perspective of a 50-something person, I can tell you that this, too, shall pass, and by the time you mature, you will wonder why you spent so much energy worrying about things that will seem trivial in many years to come. But for now, these things are major issues, I am not down-playing that. Your concerns are very real to you and right now that is consuming you. I’m just trying to point out that we all have been there and anyone who says they haven’t are lying or they forgot. But with age does come more maturity, and better perspective. It’s part of the growing up process to question, but you need more self-confidence, and you need to learn to like yourself first. It’s hard because you see yourself as you think others are seeing you, but chances are others are not seeing the same you that you see. If that makes any sense. Learn to trust what others tell you, and try to get outside yourself a little more. You have much to offer, just focus on that rather than dwelling on what you perceive are your shortcomings. Try not to be so hard on yourself. You have to love yourself first, and I sense that you don’t, so try to focus on the good you have inside you, and I know there is much good that you don’t see, or want to admit. Every time you have a negative thought about yourself, try to replace it with a positive one. It’s challenging, but it definitely helps. Good luck!</p>
<p>I already do. I’m just going to ask the psychiatrist to make the dose higher. </p>
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<p>I may not have the hardest life, but I have one of the more complex ones. I don’t want to tell everyone my life story, but it is grounded on truth. I’m just here because I have no one else to talk to. I apologize.
Hopefully, it will all pass. Just take it one day at a time.</p>
<p>I finally told my sister how I felt, she said, “Stop with this self-loathing existential ********.” She’s right, but I hope it sticks in my head.</p>
<p>I’ll go away soon for several months. I’m sorry for being annoying.</p>
<p>TA, please don’t. Pills won’t solve your problems, and they certainly won’t help you gain social skills. I’d start by changing my lifestyle if I were you.</p>
<p>No one can help me. There is nothing I can do to reverse a lifetime’s worth of failure. Pills may not improve the problem, but they can numb reality. I’m going to take more pills to escape this.</p>
<p>TA, if you really look like a model and a movie star, why don’t you marry a rich guy so you can move on with your life and stop caring once and for all?</p>
<p>^ Maybe I will. I didn’t get many compliments until towards the end of high school. By then I decided to take better care of my hair and skin and lose weight.
I feel much better. I talked to a few people I knew in real life, including my parents and realized that there are people who care about me and like me. I’m going to start off with a clean slate and have realistic goals. I also realized that I should forgive others and not let negative people have power over my life. Thank you for your help CC, I no longer need you for emotional support because I have people I know by my side.
Let the lulz and fun begin! :D</p>
<p>Clockwork, are you implying that attractive people don’t or shouldn’t have anxiety issues? TA has stated before that she gets hit on by creepy guys…why should that make someone stop having social anxiety?</p>
<p>My parents and friends tell me I’m attractive (I don’t believe it…not saying I am by any means), but I’m still really shy around new people. Of course, this doesn’t compare to TA’s anxiety, but whether a person is naturally pretty or not pretty has no influence on mental problems they cannot help.</p>
<p>Maybe you and smarteeangel should have more compassion.</p>
I didn’t get many compliments until towards the end of high school. By then I decided to take better care of my hair and skin and lose weight.