<p>You write well, maybe you could start the conversation with a letter describing your situation, emotions, motivations for what you’re proposing to do (not go to college). I agree with Chedva, that honesty and truth and some real soul searching are the way to go in approaching your parents. Show them that you’ve gained maturity through your experiences, that you are learning from hindsight (which it sounds like you are doing). Definitely offer to pay them back for the housing deposit and DO it, whether they decline or not. (That will really impress them and they’ll never forget it.) Ask for a period of time for reflection, if you feel you need it. They will probably be more likely to give you space if you set a time frame. And it sounds like you will need a breathing period to figure out your next move. Good luck.</p>