<p>First of all, thank you for clicking in and reading my post. I'm in need of serious comments on whether I should stay at UCSC or transfer to elsewhere.</p>
<pre><code> I came to this country in 2006, finished my 4 years H.S. in Cali and was accepted to
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<p>2 UC's last fall. I can speak, write, and read like other college students, though
reading/writing isn't as good as many of you on this forum. (Usually I read 6pg/hr for
Chem, 10pg/hr for Econ and other subjects.) It's slow, but at least I'm capable of thinking in English and not in my primary language. I understand learning another language takes time, and so I'm doing everything I can to improve my English skills.</p>
<pre><code> That's my background. I wished someone would told me this earlier that UC is not for everyone. Back in H.S. everyone is so obsesses with BIG name colleges and even counselor recommends students go to UC when they would. But my experience there wasn't as close as I have expect. My first quarter there I took 3 classes, passed the Core and English. But I failed my Calculus. And this is my fault since I spend too much time on writing papers than practice Calculus problems. So then I were put on probation and signed a contract stating that if I don't pass all my classes in 2nd quarter I will be dismiss.
2nd quarter, I took Gen Chem, Writing, and Micro Econ. This time around I was more serious and balanced my time on each subjects. I studied between 30~40hrs per week, went to MSI/discussion sections, did every practice problems, and office hour. You all think I should out of probation without a problem. Yes, I earned a B average on every classes before final. However, after I took my Econ Final, I saw a D on my student portal. I have above average on every midterms I took for Econ, but I failed my final and so I DROPPED from a B before final to a D after final. I'm telling you, I have read my text AT LEAST 3 times, and did practice problems on my own. How am I still failed the final? I don't know. Perhaps my English just not on par or I'm too dumb to majoring in biochem. To me, I'm not regret being dismissed from the university because I did everything I would to raise my grades. I locked myself up, studied 30~40 per week, seek help through TA, MSI, and prof, no party nothing but only GYM-SWIMMING-STUDY-EAT-SLEEP. I even used my itouch as a timer everyday and log down the hours I spend on each subjects. (e.g. For 50minutes I would take 10min break.) I talked to my college provost before I signing off from school. And she gave me her words that I can get back to readmission after a year even I have few C's on the classes I take when I'm away from UC. She knew I did everything to STAY IN and I have proof that I did studied that much and I was on every tutor's list. I can show the work that I did every practice problems after each chapter and I did read the text 3 times.
Here's my question, I'm turning 20 this year. I'm a bit late on this age as a freshmen but I'm a death serious student and I don't slack. I have my goal and ideal life I want to achieve. If I tried so hard but not getting the grades I wanted. Then either its the language or I'm just too dumb for science/engineering majors. Whichever is the case, I beg you tell me what to do next.
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<p>1) Is it worth to apply for readmission (I might still struggle there after a year)</p>
<p>2) Is it necessary that a smaller school might be easier on grading?</p>
<p>3) Do you think I'll be benefits the most from private colleges since the classes are tend to be small?</p>
<p>4) Will I get stuck at CC since the budget cuts and all that horrific stories?</p>
<p>5) Do you think I should have done better if I were in a smaller private school?</p>
<pre><code> My goal is to be able to do research on medicine/pharmaceutical/biotech companies. Which I need a Master degree at least. I do not want to get stuck at CC and will do everything I would to go to a school that fits me.
Thanks for reading my post, and I'm willing to thank you in person if I would.
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<p>God bless.</p>
<p>Matt
7/12/2011</p>