I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown and need to rant.

<p>Ok so as some of you know I had a rant on here a few weeks back about all this drama crap going on in my life (long story but somebody claimed I was spreading rumors when I wasn't).</p>

<p>Any how, my new issue is that we're putting my dog down tomorrow and she's been with me for nearly 12 years now. She's my best friend, my baby, my everything. Im just having a hard time coping because I love her so much. </p>

<p>Plus, I'm way behind in school because I've been sick so I'm trying to do catchup on top of my usual homework and the dog. </p>

<p>And tonight was my induction ceremony for NHS and I was basically crying on the stage. </p>

<p>I just needed to get all that out. I feel slightly better, but I'm still bawling and devastated. </p>

<p>Ok rant over.</p>

<p>I hate the induction ceremony for NHS. A pointless waste of time for a club that really doesn't do anything.</p>

<p>Yeah. And my parents couldn't be there (which they wanted to be because I'm the first person in the family to make it through high school this far) but couldn't because my mom was getting stitches from the dog. (She bit her which is why we decided to put her down. She would NEVER have done that if she wasn't senile)</p>

<p>I can empathize with you, roman (sorry, the rest of your name is a bit long :) )</p>

<p>I had a German Shepherd since I was in kindergarten to the summer before 10th grade, she was always there to hug or lay down on and lick me when I had a bad day. She made me feel like I was the best thing in the world. However during that summer I noticed her losing weight and becoming lethargic, I thought it was a phase but 2 days later it was the same thing, I took her to the vet who told me she had stomach cancer. :(</p>

<p>So basically he told me operate or she dies in 6 months...the nearest surgeon was 6 hours away and my mom and I just couldn't do it. I cried a lot that week, and then he gave us some tablets to boost her appetite and make her feel good, as well as giving her canned food. Within a day she was back to the happy, voracious dog I had always known. She lasted about 2 weeks like that until one the first day of school (which was a terrible first day of school), I came home and she was laying around, barely moving, making me almost force feed her. Within a week she was gone. :(</p>

<p>I was so mad - I thought 6 months was enough to say goodbye, and it ended up being about a month, and it was even worse seeing her get so much better and think there was hope and then seeing her decline so fast. I had a rough start to school, but I would never have wanted her to live 5 months longer if it would have been a steady decline of pain for her just so I could keep her around.</p>

<p>Sorry the post ran kinda long, but I know how bad it can feel :/</p>

<p>Yes. Thank you. I'm sorry for your loss too. </p>

<p>It was the same thing with my dog, only spread out a little more. </p>

<p>Plus, she tried to bite me tonight, so I realize that my dog is gone and all that's left is a painful body.</p>

<p>:( That must feel terrible, romanigypsyeyes. I really hope you get through these hard times.</p>

<p>If I were there in person, I would give you a hug.</p>

<p><em>HUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG</em></p>

<p>I have a 7 year old Labrador and he has a fatty thing on his leg. So he just went for a biopsy a couple of days ago, and I'm hoping the results are okay. He's the cutest, sweetest thing ever, and I really would feel horrible if I had to put him down..</p>

<p>Again, I hope you get through these hard times. <em>huuuuug</em></p>

<p>Thanks <em>hugs back</em>.</p>

<p>I just lost my cat 2 months ago too. Which makes it harder. </p>

<p>I have a dog who's almost 2 years old now and she helps make me feel better. Not as a replacement, but... I dno just makes me feel better.</p>

<p>So she's gone. And I too feel like dying. But I believe in reincarnation and I feel as though she'll be happier. </p>

<p>I just miss her already.</p>

<p>this is why i decided not to be a veterinarian when i grow up.</p>

<p>Yeah. My dad keeps pushing being a vet on me. He doesn't realize I could never do that to a dog. </p>

<p>I'm ok now though. Well, better. I realize that she's going to see her brother (that cat we put down not too long ago) and that she'll always be with us in one way or another. It was selfish of me to wish she was here longer when she was obviously suffering.</p>

<p>Awe, I'm so sorry! I lost a dog too and I know how terrible that feels. You did the right thing. When I lost my dog, I was 3000 miles away and had literally no one to talk to. So I went to a pet loss chat room and those people REALLY helped me when I felt so sad and alone. Maybe it'll work for you too?</p>

<p>Don't beat yourself up over school or anything. That's the worst thing when you're sad.</p>

<p>I'll pray for you, you sound like you need it (i mean it, i just realized that could be sarcastic-sounding)</p>

<p>If homework gets to be a problem with all the stress with your dog (it would certainly be understandable to spend more time with her in her last days), then try to get an extension if possible. If you can bear to part with CC, take some time off.</p>

<p>By the way, the NHS induction ceremony was pretty much optional.</p>

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<p>If it makes you feel better, if I were there in person, I would probably not give you a hug. I'm more of the cold, insensitive type. :)</p>

<p>I wasn't at school today. And honestly, now that I think about it, the NHS ceremony was good for me because it gave me a little break.</p>

<p>By the way, the NHS induction ceremony was pretty much optional.</p>

<p>Not at my school =[</p>

<p>Over here it is (even though they pretend it isn't), and so I guess that applies to her, too. I think the food afterward was a good incentive to come.</p>

<p>I left right after. And I lost my certificate. I was just so in shambles...</p>

<p>That sucks. But, hopefully, after a couple of weeks (or however long it takes), you'll be adjusted to these things (and will be caught up in school). I've never had a pet, so I don't know what it's like.</p>

<p>Yeah... it sucks. My puppy's helping though and I'm probably just going to have to go through the motions until everything is somewhat back to normal.</p>

<p>I've never had a pet whom I loved as much as you loved yours, romani, and thus, I cannot relate directly, but I am truly sorry for your loss. Take comfort in the memories that you've had together, and that your dog is in a better place now.</p>